Is taking adderall setting me back?

[Clsvey89]

I was on opiates for about 5 years, then suboxone for about 4.. I spent 4 days detoxing in rehab going from 8mg of suboxone to 4mg for a few days then nothing. It's been a little over 3 weeks with nothing and it was hell but I think most of the physical stuff is over. All I feel now is completely physically and mentally exhausted, like to the point where I can't function. My entire body hurts. Getting myself up and dressed is exhausting and I have 2 little kids. I've been taking vitamins and exercising and it doesn't seem to help. So I kind of caved in and took some adderall. A few times. Going into rehab I stopped taking adderall too, I had been taking it for about a year and I can't really say if I was addicted or not..I used to hate adderall but eventually got used to it (I was prescribed it for ADD). Anyways I'm wondering if doing this is somehow setting me back. Like preventing me from learning to function normally and dragging things out if that makes sense. I defiantly feel like a failure doing it but I literally just couldn't get through the day, I felt like I was failing my kids by sitting around crying and being depressed and out of it all day. I cannot keep taking adderall even if I wanted to so I'm afraid everything's going to come crashing down hard when I have to stop. Also.. When does it get better? Especially the energy and mental part? What can you do besides vitamins and working out to help? Anything natural or even from a doctor that could help? Thanks ahead of time to anyone who reads through this.

 

[Clsvey89]

I wanted to add in what I was thinking, or at least how I was hoping things would go- take the adderall for a little while to get through this exhaustion can't think straight kind of part of it...keep exercising, taking vitamins, ect. Then when I stop taking the adderall hopefully I would be a little back to normal. But I'm wondering is the adderall just going to turn into an addiction and when I quit I'm going to go through the same shit?

 

[PriestTheyCalledHim]

If you take it as a prescribed medication for ADD/ADHD then no it's not setting you back.

Some people who have ADD or ADHD have tried eating right, exercise, diet, meditation, etc. but only the Dexedrine/Adderall works.

 

[SteeleyJ]

I think you will be good if u take as prescribed. It will cause dependency....but a day of sleep followed by day of food and things that make u happy.....it'll pass quick.

 

[Clsvey89]

I was diagnosed with add when I was 13 and have been on and off of it since then. In the last few years I've been getting it I've mostly been giving it to other people..a lot of people in my family take it so I just got it for them. I never liked it because even if I just took a crumb I would all strung out..my heart would race, my head felt weird and it would make my OCD out of control. But about a year and a half ago I decided to try a little again because my fatigue was so bad even on the subs.. I can't say I loved it but I guess I got used to it because it defiantly was better them being tired. From what I understand if it makes you strung out like that then you really don't have ADD, and people who actually have it calm down when they take it. I defiantly haven't been taking it for the right reasons, I don't even have a script anymore and probably wouldn't be able to get one. They've made it hard to get, like you need to have a job or be going to school..they don't consider being a mother a job. So now I've been taking it all week and I'm afraid I'm going to feel like shit for a long time when I have to stop. Like I'm just making it all way worse in the long run. I'm going to the doctors Monday and I've been thinking about asking him for an anti depressant or just ANYTHING that would help..but it's just more and more pills. I read that paws is the worst around 3-6 months and I almost fell over and died. I'm having a really hard time dealing with the exhaustion, brain fog, no motivation or will to live part of it.