is my life ruined?

[justsomeguy619]

Sorry about the long story,So to put it simply i was a heavy weed smoker and i also had extreme health anxiety, after i had Daily panic attacks in the beginning of the year and started getting nocturnal ones as well i was obsessed about my health and thought constantly i was dying i briefly felt depersonalization but it went away and after a while i noticed my vision was kind of off, thought it was the stress that caused it and it seemed to get better after a while even though the nocturnal attacks continued. Then i got a horrible panic attack at a restaurant and got some serious dpdr that has been persistent it has eased a lot but i still have some visuals that started with it that has me worried that i have damaged my brain, i have some visual static and afterimages, slight what i think is starbursting and some ghosting from light colored objects like if i see a white object in a black background i see kind of a shadow copy of the object slightly above it and my head feels really weird and sometimes it feels like the back of my head is buzzing. I am very desperate and i feel like my life is ruined i have quit the weed and i have tried psychedelics years ago but never used them often, i thought for a while i had hppd but it just doesnt make sense considering the onset of it. Guess i wanted to ask if anyone else has experienced something similar and has. Gotten better, please i feel so hopeless and depressed.

 

[justsomeguy619]

Do i have a chance to recover from this? I feel suicidal sometimes thinking i will suffer for the rest of my life.

 

[Talos]

Calm down man.Using substances to overcome anxiety like smoking weed or cigarettes or any other substance ,doesnt let you body natural defences to rise up and make you feel better ,calmer and stronger.Drink a beer or something ,try to let it go.Remember that You didn't born with a joint in your hand.

 

[P.o.T.u.S]

Yea it will get better..i had something similar happen to me and I quit for a while and now I can smoke here and there with no problem and my anxiety is back at normal levels while sober..can't say an exact timeline tho..kinda just slowly got better

 

[doctordetox]

yes it will improve you need a healthy diet rest counselling and CBT

 

[redtailedhawk]

Very similar thing happened to me and it lasted for quite a while, but it got better in time. Here's what helped:

* avoidance of all drugs, including cannabis
* avoidance of stimulating herbs and food, especially caffeine, alcohol, coke, green tea, chocolate
* 5 regular meals per day, healthy, nutritious and grounding food (including meat, or at least form of animal protein)
* highly structured lifestyle, meaning doing the same thing at the same time every day for months (think of it like an army camp)
* aerobic exercise, such as long walks or running in nature, gardening, etc
* avoidance of anxiety provoking and stressful situations and people (very important!)
* touch, massage
* herbal tinctures for anxiety and depression such as lemon balm, valerian, st. john's wort, milky oats, holy basil (test them out and see which help)
* time and acceptance of your situation and hope that recovery will come

Also read the book The stormy search for the Self by Grof's. It has some additional interesting information on cases like yours which you might find useful.

Good luck. Don't lose hope. It does get better!

 

[justsomeguy619]

Thank you guys i just sometimes doubt that my anxiety could cause symptoms as intense as these, especially the visual ones,i guess i just sometimes feel hopeless about it and when i try to figure it out it just gets worse