Hello, I am an addict of Poppy Pod tea. The longest I've gone without them is 8 days. My physical withdrawal has always been minor due to the way I dose by spacing it out as much as possible. I am fully psychologically addicted to this though. I use it as an antidepressant and anxiolytic.
I also have been dabbling in GABAergics, or to put it another way playing with fire. I have more than enough to become physically dependent to the point I'd need a medical intervention to detox. I do not want this to happen so for the time being I am resuming my poppy pod addiction which chases away cravings for benzodiazepines.
I am still in the honeymoon phase of pods. I get high off them, especially when I am lucky enough to get ones with higher thebaine content. The morphine gives me a good body buzz. I am starting to look at myself however and realize that I am not in control when I wait for the postman to deliver my parcel of pods, I lay out the blender and line the trashcan ready to dump out seeds and process the pods as if it were some sacred ancient ritual I am conducting. I pace around waiting for it to arrive. This reinforces just how bad my psychological dependence has gotten. I do not blame the drug though, I made the INFORMED choice to get addicted to this, I always knew what the consequences would be. I take responsibility.
As I write this my tolerance went down a noticeable bit in those 8 days of dabbling in benzodiazepines including Flunitrazepam. I also used high doses of Phenibut, a potent GABAergic with an extremely long duration of action, too long for my tastes. I realized benzos were sucking me in and I must not allow myself to get addicted to these which cause seizures and other life threatening things upon withdrawal. So the big supply of benzos I shall reserve as escape hatches for opiate withdrawal insomnia, bad hallucinogen trips, etc. OCCASIONAL use for when I must be at social gatherings, a mild dose of a long lasting benzo to keep my social anxiety disorder pinned down. Never daily use. No.
Between the two, pods are the lesser of two evils so to speak. You don't need medical intervention to withdraw off opiates. I have medications for Diarrhea, leg cramps, insomnia, anxiety, strong NSAIDs for rebound pain. I have a goal of only using maintenance doses rather than get high doses.
May 2010 is when I actually became addicted -- and when I began using pods, but I used opiates recreationally before that. A couple vicodin here and there but not on a daily basis. Then I was dabbling in poppy seed tea and had one intense experience followed by crap experiences. The good experience was the most intense experience I had, more intense than the rushes I got from IV Fentanyl after surgery in the hospital. I had over 100 percocets late 2009 which I began using recreationally. I did not become dependent on them due to spacing. Then we arrive at May 2010. That is when I learned about poppy pod "tea" I ordered a cheap tester batch nothing big and was floored with how high it got me. And so began a new era of my life.
So opiates are my drug of choice. I'm not ready to be sober yet. I am financially stable even with this pod habit, haven't had to pawn off anything or go hungry to maintain it thankfully. As I type this I am on a high thebaine content pod high that feels close to an oxycodone high -- stimulating rather than noddy and sedating -- the way I prefer. The cravings for benzos are gone. I look at how many benzos I bought and I really went a bit overkill but oh well I have them and will save them for legitimate purposes. Occasional, infrequent, spaced out use for real problems not to get the stupor. Some benzos worsen depression, this I know.
I also dabble in LSD and 2C-E for introspection and hopefully expansion of my spirituality and consciousness. I believe the former drug at least has major potential to bring about change in my life. However these are used on rare occasions. As a depressed person I must be naturally relaxed and upbeat to use LSD for the experience to be positive. Set and setting. My first LSD experience, 150ug, did not yield much. No visuals but I had mood swings where bottled up emotions came out all in the time frame of 10 minutes. I then felt like I was plugged in to a warm higher energy for the remainder of the trip, if you could call an experience without visuals a trip.
The first drug I ever used recreationally, aside from alcohol, was DXM in the form of syrup. The farthest I've gotten is a deep second plateau. I don't really care for DXM trips. I use it in therapeutic doses to keep my opiate tolerance from escalating too much.
Thankee-sai to all who have read. I don't know if I will continue to post blog postings, I am antisocial by nature, but I'll try.
I also have been dabbling in GABAergics, or to put it another way playing with fire. I have more than enough to become physically dependent to the point I'd need a medical intervention to detox. I do not want this to happen so for the time being I am resuming my poppy pod addiction which chases away cravings for benzodiazepines.
I am still in the honeymoon phase of pods. I get high off them, especially when I am lucky enough to get ones with higher thebaine content. The morphine gives me a good body buzz. I am starting to look at myself however and realize that I am not in control when I wait for the postman to deliver my parcel of pods, I lay out the blender and line the trashcan ready to dump out seeds and process the pods as if it were some sacred ancient ritual I am conducting. I pace around waiting for it to arrive. This reinforces just how bad my psychological dependence has gotten. I do not blame the drug though, I made the INFORMED choice to get addicted to this, I always knew what the consequences would be. I take responsibility.
As I write this my tolerance went down a noticeable bit in those 8 days of dabbling in benzodiazepines including Flunitrazepam. I also used high doses of Phenibut, a potent GABAergic with an extremely long duration of action, too long for my tastes. I realized benzos were sucking me in and I must not allow myself to get addicted to these which cause seizures and other life threatening things upon withdrawal. So the big supply of benzos I shall reserve as escape hatches for opiate withdrawal insomnia, bad hallucinogen trips, etc. OCCASIONAL use for when I must be at social gatherings, a mild dose of a long lasting benzo to keep my social anxiety disorder pinned down. Never daily use. No.
Between the two, pods are the lesser of two evils so to speak. You don't need medical intervention to withdraw off opiates. I have medications for Diarrhea, leg cramps, insomnia, anxiety, strong NSAIDs for rebound pain. I have a goal of only using maintenance doses rather than get high doses.
May 2010 is when I actually became addicted -- and when I began using pods, but I used opiates recreationally before that. A couple vicodin here and there but not on a daily basis. Then I was dabbling in poppy seed tea and had one intense experience followed by crap experiences. The good experience was the most intense experience I had, more intense than the rushes I got from IV Fentanyl after surgery in the hospital. I had over 100 percocets late 2009 which I began using recreationally. I did not become dependent on them due to spacing. Then we arrive at May 2010. That is when I learned about poppy pod "tea" I ordered a cheap tester batch nothing big and was floored with how high it got me. And so began a new era of my life.
So opiates are my drug of choice. I'm not ready to be sober yet. I am financially stable even with this pod habit, haven't had to pawn off anything or go hungry to maintain it thankfully. As I type this I am on a high thebaine content pod high that feels close to an oxycodone high -- stimulating rather than noddy and sedating -- the way I prefer. The cravings for benzos are gone. I look at how many benzos I bought and I really went a bit overkill but oh well I have them and will save them for legitimate purposes. Occasional, infrequent, spaced out use for real problems not to get the stupor. Some benzos worsen depression, this I know.
I also dabble in LSD and 2C-E for introspection and hopefully expansion of my spirituality and consciousness. I believe the former drug at least has major potential to bring about change in my life. However these are used on rare occasions. As a depressed person I must be naturally relaxed and upbeat to use LSD for the experience to be positive. Set and setting. My first LSD experience, 150ug, did not yield much. No visuals but I had mood swings where bottled up emotions came out all in the time frame of 10 minutes. I then felt like I was plugged in to a warm higher energy for the remainder of the trip, if you could call an experience without visuals a trip.
The first drug I ever used recreationally, aside from alcohol, was DXM in the form of syrup. The farthest I've gotten is a deep second plateau. I don't really care for DXM trips. I use it in therapeutic doses to keep my opiate tolerance from escalating too much.
Thankee-sai to all who have read. I don't know if I will continue to post blog postings, I am antisocial by nature, but I'll try.