Hello I'm new to this forum site, just wondered if anyone else has had this or going thru ect or just want opinions??
I'm a 36 yo white man I'm married to a very hot wife and we have great sex life I'm good looking very muscular and masculine ... About 12 years ago I started watching interracial porn (black man with hott white/Latin or Asian girls) and it turned me on so I started watching more and more to where it was all I watched. After about a year it had become a obsession , the only kind that gets me hard or I masturebate to is IR porn especially the anal ones . I can't watch any other porn unless it has a black man .
So after 5 years of strictly watching IR anal porn I started almost fascinating about what it is like to be that girl getting fucked in the ass , I went and bought a few butt plugs and started watching it and masturbating w different butt plugs . That was t enough apparently I wanted to kno what that girl felt like so I went and bought a realistic Lex Steele dildo and sexy lingerie. I shave my whole entire body ( legs ass everything), do a enema , put in my butt plug and wear lingerie . I have long masturebation sessions and f*ck my lex dildo when watching IR anal porn . Afterwards I would feel disgusted and say I won't do it again but sooner or later I get that weird urge when watching porn like I want something in my ass (only 1-2 times a month max)
For the record I have never felt attracted to men never done anything gay/bi ect . I've always been with very hot girls and love women.
So after doing that for a few year it have led to fantasizing thoughts about wanting to be with Sean Michaels , Lex , Mandingo and Flash brown . Really only those 4 am I sexually attracted to and if I were in one of my moods and one of them were in a room and nobody would find out about it I would totally suck them off n let them have their way with me . I don't know what it is but something about there black cocks ? How they are shiny when they slide out or their size IDK but it make me wanna suck them ?? I honestly don't know what it is but I'm obsessed and can't stop fantasizing about being with one of them especially Sean Michaels he's the only man in my life I've ever thought was absolutely sexy , well the others too but especially him .anyway I do t kno what to do cuz I don't want it to progress any further to where I end up going to sum sex club n seeking a black man out to fulfill my weird fantasy.
Dose anyone else have this happen or similar thing ? Also girls do you share same kinda thoughts about black men ? Please anyone share thoughts . Thanks
I'm a 36 yo white man I'm married to a very hot wife and we have great sex life I'm good looking very muscular and masculine ... About 12 years ago I started watching interracial porn (black man with hott white/Latin or Asian girls) and it turned me on so I started watching more and more to where it was all I watched. After about a year it had become a obsession , the only kind that gets me hard or I masturebate to is IR porn especially the anal ones . I can't watch any other porn unless it has a black man .
So after 5 years of strictly watching IR anal porn I started almost fascinating about what it is like to be that girl getting fucked in the ass , I went and bought a few butt plugs and started watching it and masturbating w different butt plugs . That was t enough apparently I wanted to kno what that girl felt like so I went and bought a realistic Lex Steele dildo and sexy lingerie. I shave my whole entire body ( legs ass everything), do a enema , put in my butt plug and wear lingerie . I have long masturebation sessions and f*ck my lex dildo when watching IR anal porn . Afterwards I would feel disgusted and say I won't do it again but sooner or later I get that weird urge when watching porn like I want something in my ass (only 1-2 times a month max)
For the record I have never felt attracted to men never done anything gay/bi ect . I've always been with very hot girls and love women.
So after doing that for a few year it have led to fantasizing thoughts about wanting to be with Sean Michaels , Lex , Mandingo and Flash brown . Really only those 4 am I sexually attracted to and if I were in one of my moods and one of them were in a room and nobody would find out about it I would totally suck them off n let them have their way with me . I don't know what it is but something about there black cocks ? How they are shiny when they slide out or their size IDK but it make me wanna suck them ?? I honestly don't know what it is but I'm obsessed and can't stop fantasizing about being with one of them especially Sean Michaels he's the only man in my life I've ever thought was absolutely sexy , well the others too but especially him .anyway I do t kno what to do cuz I don't want it to progress any further to where I end up going to sum sex club n seeking a black man out to fulfill my weird fantasy.
Dose anyone else have this happen or similar thing ? Also girls do you share same kinda thoughts about black men ? Please anyone share thoughts . Thanks