Internet-huasca (Mimosa Hostilis + Syrian Rue) 1st time

[Ekstasis-//7]

So I guess Ayahuasca is just one of those things I have been very interested to try over the last couple of years. I have read and also watched a movie (shamans of the Amazon). This was one I didn't go searching for as I new the level of intensity and side effects are such that I wouldn't want to play with it at the wrong time or place....

So anyway... I guess I had Ayahuasca on my back list of when the right time comes I'll buy or find some and do it... Strangely enough around 2 months ago a roommate someone I only just met briefly had to leave the country. As a gift he gave me a bag of red ground up tree bark (which I am almost certain is Mimosa Hostilis) and a bag of Syrian Rue which he bought off the net. He had been meaning to try it with his friend but I guess that time never came.

I did some research on erowid. I obviously knew of the adverse effects and of the strong nausea. So I tried a small brew. I didn't have scales then so the amount was unknown... I did go low though... probably around 2-3 grams of the red root bark I boiled up. I probably had around 1 gram of the Syrian Rue.

After I boiled and strained both brews I set them side in two mugs. I drank a 1/3 of the yellow one (Syrian Rye) and waited around 15mins. I then chugged a 1/3 of the red brew (the mimosa hostilis). It took somewhere around 20mins or so to start to feel it. I felt a little floaty at first. Usual psychedelic colour effect where they seem brighter and more intense. I began feeling a bit tripped out, only slightly but very much like mushrooms. I had music on and the visuals from winamp going through the tv... this was good as I noticed an uncomfortable trippy state hit me... like all of a sudden you just feel like things are not right... and you feel like whatever you do you can't make it feel right. Playing good trance music did relax me a bit though and got me positive. I can see though that the DMT trip is not particularly pleasant. I felt a very sleepy high. Like the trip makes me want to lye down, mash out, and close me eyes and let my mind wonder on its own issues. I experienced the trippy effects only for around an hour and they were wearing off. If was a pretty mild trip although it did feel pretty uncomfortable when it first kicked it. There were some visuals sort of like mushrooms, mirroring, fractals that sort or thing but only very mild.

Luckily I had doses so small that there wasn't too much nausea feeling. I never threw up or felt poisoned as on HBW seeds. This is good as a big issue for me is nausea. Something about that helpless feeling when you want to throw up I can't handle. There's probably something screwed in my psyche/head as I have not been thrown up in like 14yrs or so. I mean I have been sweating, shaking, felt like I wanted to die and tried jammed fingers down my throat but no yok... Its the worst feeling ever. So in a was that's what scares me about ayahuasca. I'm still not sure if one day I will just take the full dose and hold... At this stage however this was an little interesting experiment. Even though I'm sure I'm only just scratching the surface of DMT.

I should also mention that I went to sleep straight after the trip. When I awoke I felt nice and so relaxed. It was just like the best MDMA sleep... like that awesome cosy feeling where you wake up after an just wanna hug the sheets and feel greeeeeeeeaaat :D

 

[Beenhead]

your just a trip report writin' fiend today huh! very interesting though. Keep up the good (and safe) work!

 

[Ekstasis-//7]

^^ Thanks man. The last few months have been quite interesting. I feel really lucky to have got to try a bunch of the psychs I have been interested in for quite some time. I guess a few of my x-masses came at once . I'm hoping now I will begin to understand the psychedelic experience a little better and with a little more maturity and wisdom.

One note about the internet-huasca, it's interesting actually. I expected so much more. I know I haven't really had a anywhere near a full blown DMT trip (ie complete ego loss/dream/alternate reality type stuff but still even from my trials I get the feeling that this may not be so useful and special for my life (at least right now). I think also the side effects (strong nausea) make it a lot less useful for me.

I guess there are certain psychs/entheogens that because I have read a fair bit about their cultural/religious/spiritual use (and trip reports) are so easy to think are above all others in terms of insight and usefulness.. even before using them myself. So it's kind of humbling when I actually get to try some of them (many times after years of reading about them) and I realise that other psychs/entheogens I have done already done have been far more enlightening and workable for me. Only a short time before trying the DMT brew here I tried smoking 5-Meo-DMT and also eating HBW seeds (LSA) then a short time after 2C-T-2. They were all so high on my list of amazing insightful wonder drugs... until I actually tried them. I guess I've found each psych/entheogen out there I've tried has its own way of working. Each are useful in someway, insightful, challenging, spiritual. Some fit better for my life. Nearly all I've tried I can get something good out of it but I guess there's really only a few that have seemed to change my way of thinking or radically influence my life for the better and out of those probably only a couple if that that aren't super temperamental and can be used with some ease and enjoyment.