how attractive are you? dying to know
LOL. Not sure why you'd be dying to know, but I'm not really the best person to evaluate my attractiveness. My self-esteem is nonexistent, but if I had to guess I'd say not very....I'm very self conscious about my height as I'm quite short at 5'6". At least I'm not overweight, if anything I'm underweight at 110lbs. Other than that, I'm not sure I can give you an accurate rating of my overall attractiveness.
It´s very difficult to be friends with a woman.
You can chat and you can have a great time with her.
However, at some point that´s not going to work for you.
It´s a cliché I know, but it happens to be true.. so why don´t you change your ways. If you know you are going to be attracted start sooner than becoming friends..
Well, the "date" came and went. We hung out at my place for about an hour before going out for dinner at a sushi place. Of course she didn't tell me that she doesn't like raw fish until we got there....so that made me feel pretty stupid. At least the restaurant has a decent amount of non sushi entrees as it's an asian food/sushi place.
As the night went on it became clear nothing was going to happen, so I didn't push anything as I then viewed that as too great a risk and I just can't lose another friend right now. I lost every other close friend I had this year, so losing the only other person I trust and care for would be devastating at this point in time. As I had planned, I then just got drunk and tried to enjoy a nice night out with a close friend. Dinner ended up costing me more than I thought and as such I was short on cash to buy beer with, so we ended up missing the first half of the game sitting at the bar that way I could get nice and drunk, lol.
That was enjoyable though as we got to have a real nice conversation for about an hour or so. That's one thing we can always do is have really great chats. That's the thing that attracts me to her the most as there's not many people that I feel as comfortable talking to as I am with her. She's really honest and open with me about everything and I am with her as well. That's something that I don't have with anyone else. With other people I'm usually just not as comfortable talking with them. A majority of the time this is because I either feel they aren't intelligent enough to hold a quality conversation or I feel like they haven't had the kind of life experiences that her and I have had, which allow us to truly empathize and understand each other.
I find the ability to have intelligent and interesting conversation to be the attribute that I desire most in any potential partner. If I can't have quality, intelligent conversations with someone, it leaves me feeling like something huge is missing I end up having to feign interest in what she has to say and that kills me to have to do.
It's all just so disappointing and frustrating. Not just because this girl isn't interested in a romantic relationship. That's really not the end of the world for me. She's a great friend and I can deal with just being friends with her.
It's just that I feel like I'm a decent guy. I may not be the best looking guy in the world, but I'm a pretty intelligent person, I'm pretty open once I get know someone, I'm loyal, I pay attention to the little things and try to be an all around nice guy. I'm just tired of spending all my time alone. There's so many things I enjoy doing that would be that much more enjoyable if I had someone to share it with. I love film and TV shows, but it's not as fun without someone to talk to about, I into saltwater fish tanks and that as well is something I'd really like to be able to share with someone. However, I don't seem to attract women at all. The few that I have attracted ended up being terrible girlfriends that were all very manipulative and abusive. I don't really know what I'm getting at here, but I'm just sick and tired of being lonely :/
