rakenshake
Greenlighter
Swim usually doesnt do opiates/opioids because of work but, a friend gave him some instant release oxycodone two weeks ago.
Since then swim has been driving/walking around poor neighborhoods looking for dealers and messaging all his friends trying to
locate something. It is like something got turned on in his head and, is now ordering him to find opiates. swim is thinking of
driving to the big city to find something and, doesnt know how to prevent it. swim has a history of drug abuse and wonders what
he should do to fight these strong cravings.

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Since then swim has been driving/walking around poor neighborhoods looking for dealers and messaging all his friends trying to
locate something. It is like something got turned on in his head and, is now ordering him to find opiates. swim is thinking of
driving to the big city to find something and, doesnt know how to prevent it. swim has a history of drug abuse and wonders what
he should do to fight these strong cravings.
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Does your job keep you really busy all day? The reason I ask is that maybe the cravings are worse at night because you actually have down-time in which to be more aware that you are in need of an escape. It sounds like you are looking for release from some kind of pain--can you identify what that is? Loneliness? Depression?