All my life I?ve been a rebellious son. At the age of twelve I smoked my first joint.
It opened up a whole new world for me. I moved from Ok to TN. At thirteen to 17 o smoked weed when I could. At 16 my stepsister died in a autobobile accident. I was a a crusade when I came home and found she died.
I did a slight 180. It was kinda scary.
I moved back to Oklahoma November of 2002. In 03 I was shipped off to Job Corps. I didn?t like the atmosphere and was intrigued by ecstasy. I went awal.
I lived in the big city of Oklahoma. I was doing every drug I could get my hands on. In 2004 I met a chick from the clubs. Yeah right, the perfect place to find love. My main drug abuse was meth. In May of 05 after doing so many drugs I got very paranoid that I gave her HIV. that month I went to the department of human services to see about a blood test.
I was so paranoid that I walked out and walked all around OKC IN no certain direction. I finally went to a pay phone and called the cops. The person that picked up was a Gay K9 officer I stole about 20 grams of pure cocaine that was for his dog. I go back to jail and dry out. I told the judge I was guilty cuz I thought I was in there for passing a STD.
I get out and I thought I was in a dawn of the dead movie. I take five ecstasy to end my life. I make a scene at a gas station and go back to jail.
I was thrown to the floor. Felt like I was raped. Thrown into a stretcher and shot up in both forearms. They took a sample of blood and off to the hospital and the. Detox. I wake up and I?m completely out of it.
The next day I go to my ex?s house and make a scene in front of the entire neighborhood. I go back to jail and I?m out over night. The next day I bring my ex over and tell her I gave her HIV,
She leaves and I started losing it so I ran to a house and broke their window.
I go back to jail but but this time I was completely out of it.
Long story short I was in jail for two months. Get beat up pretty bad and finally get our. Over the course of a few more months I was literally the most fearful thing to go thru. I finally start snapping out of it and my ex breaks up with me. In May of 06 I started going thru that psychosis/tribulation again.
This time I said heck no and gave my life to Jesus. I had the most explosive profound experience ever. For two years I was of fire for God,
In 08 I was hit with obsessive thoughts that terrified me. In that summer I was struggling so bad. Since then I?ve struggled, but that experience was there just to wet my appetite.
Folks here I am today to say if you?re lonely, feeling forsakenef and whatever you are going through.
God loves you and wants a intimate relationship with you.
I really wished I had a one on one talk with someone before I got into all the crap I did.
It opened up a whole new world for me. I moved from Ok to TN. At thirteen to 17 o smoked weed when I could. At 16 my stepsister died in a autobobile accident. I was a a crusade when I came home and found she died.
I did a slight 180. It was kinda scary.
I moved back to Oklahoma November of 2002. In 03 I was shipped off to Job Corps. I didn?t like the atmosphere and was intrigued by ecstasy. I went awal.
I lived in the big city of Oklahoma. I was doing every drug I could get my hands on. In 2004 I met a chick from the clubs. Yeah right, the perfect place to find love. My main drug abuse was meth. In May of 05 after doing so many drugs I got very paranoid that I gave her HIV. that month I went to the department of human services to see about a blood test.
I was so paranoid that I walked out and walked all around OKC IN no certain direction. I finally went to a pay phone and called the cops. The person that picked up was a Gay K9 officer I stole about 20 grams of pure cocaine that was for his dog. I go back to jail and dry out. I told the judge I was guilty cuz I thought I was in there for passing a STD.
I get out and I thought I was in a dawn of the dead movie. I take five ecstasy to end my life. I make a scene at a gas station and go back to jail.
I was thrown to the floor. Felt like I was raped. Thrown into a stretcher and shot up in both forearms. They took a sample of blood and off to the hospital and the. Detox. I wake up and I?m completely out of it.
The next day I go to my ex?s house and make a scene in front of the entire neighborhood. I go back to jail and I?m out over night. The next day I bring my ex over and tell her I gave her HIV,
She leaves and I started losing it so I ran to a house and broke their window.
I go back to jail but but this time I was completely out of it.
Long story short I was in jail for two months. Get beat up pretty bad and finally get our. Over the course of a few more months I was literally the most fearful thing to go thru. I finally start snapping out of it and my ex breaks up with me. In May of 06 I started going thru that psychosis/tribulation again.
This time I said heck no and gave my life to Jesus. I had the most explosive profound experience ever. For two years I was of fire for God,
In 08 I was hit with obsessive thoughts that terrified me. In that summer I was struggling so bad. Since then I?ve struggled, but that experience was there just to wet my appetite.
Folks here I am today to say if you?re lonely, feeling forsakenef and whatever you are going through.
God loves you and wants a intimate relationship with you.
I really wished I had a one on one talk with someone before I got into all the crap I did.