I feel restless, and unhealthy here. I am showing some of the same signs of stress I showed before that caused me to realize that the college I was attending was too demanding for me. MY had lost a lot of weight and my hair had started to fall out and sleep, well wasn't good either.
Now its happening all over again. This time the answer just isn't so simple. I don't know what I can change.
I WANT to move out of my parents house but I feel so helpless to be able to do that. Right now I'm going to school and just working a few days a week. My fear is that if I did move I couldn't pay the bills and the last thing I want to do is come back to my parents.
Plus there is the issue of my health needs. I'm on medications that I CAN NOT do without. I miss one day and my whole world starts to go down hill as you have recently seen. (I'm doing better today.) And there are other ones I need as well. There is the issue of my depo shot and the fact that I MUST have glasses so eye care is needed. Plus in order to get all the things and proper care that I need seeing a psych doc is needed. There is no way I could pay for all that.
I graduate spring 2010, I guess I could stay in this hell hole (although I don't pay rent of food or various other things so there is some blessings I guess) where I don't WANT to talk to anyone here and its quite often that I'm threatened with physical harm from my younger brother. Summer is coming and he will be around even more, dreading it.
My only hope is that I can find a good job with my psych degree, one that has some sort of medical coverage, but that is a long time from now. How can I manage being so restless here. And the way the world is going a job may not even be there, then what do I do? Live with my parents forever and work a shitty job that I hate? HELP?
I have so much homework to do. I can't stand to read that boring CRAP. One class I have already taken but, "It doesn't count becuase I took it under psychology and and BVU its offered only under sociology", are you kidding me? I have to PAY to take a class that I have already wasted my time and PAID to take?! Even the prof. said it was bs.
Any advice would be helpful. I know some of you have moved out on your own. Shit I feel like a child now. How did you manage or perhaps you just didn't have the situation I do.
Now its happening all over again. This time the answer just isn't so simple. I don't know what I can change.
I WANT to move out of my parents house but I feel so helpless to be able to do that. Right now I'm going to school and just working a few days a week. My fear is that if I did move I couldn't pay the bills and the last thing I want to do is come back to my parents.
Plus there is the issue of my health needs. I'm on medications that I CAN NOT do without. I miss one day and my whole world starts to go down hill as you have recently seen. (I'm doing better today.) And there are other ones I need as well. There is the issue of my depo shot and the fact that I MUST have glasses so eye care is needed. Plus in order to get all the things and proper care that I need seeing a psych doc is needed. There is no way I could pay for all that.
I graduate spring 2010, I guess I could stay in this hell hole (although I don't pay rent of food or various other things so there is some blessings I guess) where I don't WANT to talk to anyone here and its quite often that I'm threatened with physical harm from my younger brother. Summer is coming and he will be around even more, dreading it.
My only hope is that I can find a good job with my psych degree, one that has some sort of medical coverage, but that is a long time from now. How can I manage being so restless here. And the way the world is going a job may not even be there, then what do I do? Live with my parents forever and work a shitty job that I hate? HELP?
I have so much homework to do. I can't stand to read that boring CRAP. One class I have already taken but, "It doesn't count becuase I took it under psychology and and BVU its offered only under sociology", are you kidding me? I have to PAY to take a class that I have already wasted my time and PAID to take?! Even the prof. said it was bs.
Any advice would be helpful. I know some of you have moved out on your own. Shit I feel like a child now. How did you manage or perhaps you just didn't have the situation I do.