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In benzo wd! Please help me Maya and Herbavore, I am going nuts!

alexvolume2

alexvolume2

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I recently spent time in Mexico as many of you know. I thought I had killed my depression. I was wrong, I took too many benzos-namely clonazepam. I also was taking tramadol, pregabalin, and gabapentin. I have never withdrawn from benzos, I tried to use alcohol as a fast taper and I became floridly psychotic.

I really need some help right now. I have been addicted to everything and this is the worst of them all. I have been addicted to meth, crack, heroin, alcohol and benzo withdrawal is new to me, I should have listened to everyone on bluelight that said that this is the worst one to come off of.

What will help with my withdrawal symptoms? I have no doctor here and a check in to the mental hospital may not be possible. I last took 1500 mg of gabapentin on Saturday so I could work. After I got off I drank for three days and when I stopped is when the shit hit the fan completely. I am able to type this, but I am so scared of relapsing on alcohol.

Will valerian root or gaba pills help me? I haven't been able to sleep in days. Passing out from alcohol will exacerbate my symptoms. I am working this with no etizolam and 2 10 mg valiums. I need help!!
 
Hey alex.. what day are you on? I detoxed benzos, oxy, and methadone at the same time.. I did not sleep for weeks, but benzo detox can be dangerous have you seen a Dr to be placed temp on librium or another medication to prevent seizures?<3
 
I think I'm on day 4, I haven't been able to sleep. I am taking 2.5 mg diazepam about every 8 hours. I still have diazepam in my system. I do not have a Dr. and have no money. I can't start drinking again. I am putting all my cards on deck, but I can't even find etizolam. So I have 7.5 mg diazepam left and that is all, I am going to take valerian root and kava kava extracts when that is done.

I will find out how to get off of this, those are the only two gabaergics that I have access too ATM. I just feel like I am going crazy. Thank you for the support, neversickanymore, I asked for their help because we've spoken before but I respect all of you guys massively. That's why I came to BL. Will weed help? I just feel nuts right now. I am still experiencing acute symptoms, but it is not as bad. I am about to get someone to take me to get valerian and kava.

Thanks guys, please check in with me if possible! I really need support, but after tomorrow I'm going to have to take care of myself. I can't start drinking again, it'll make it worse right?
 
here is the Ashton Manual if you don't have it already.

Alex you have to make sure that you don't relapse on alcohol. You are going to be all right but you have to stay focused and clear; even though it is uncomfortable now, this will pass.

You asked if weed will help and I guess the answer is what does it do for you? If it calms you and helps you sleep then maybe it would be good. If it amps up anxiety then stay away from it.

You can get through this. It sounds like you are really scared and that is understandable but try not to overthink. One step at a time.
 
Well I called 911 and it was probably the best thing I did. The worst is I took 600 mg of dxm and it was literally a death trip. I thought I would die, literally. I didn't.

I'm typing from the hospital and I think I'm done with this shit. I am tired of embarrassing my family. I'm gonna stick to weed.

R.i.p dextermeth

I am so sorry my friend. We must stop dying! This is too much. We are hurting our families, I don't know if I will escape....but I'm making a fuckin plan.
 
I didn't get the manual before u made that decision herbavore. I think I narrowly escaped death this time.

I realize now truly that I am important or it's at least important that I stay alive. For everyone in my family. I am tired of ruining lives and spreading shit over everything.
 
Good call alex.. im so glad you sought help. Throw all that guilt and shame out the window and fly as far away from it as possible. Its not warranted, makes us miserable, and drives use. Yes rip dex, but learn how to rest in life alex.:)
 
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I get that line...all too well. I am out of the hospital. Sigh. 21 valium should never cost thousands of dollars. There is a reason I was born quiet, I shouldn't spew bullshit like I have been.

I have been fooling only myself.
 
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