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I'm free, I'm finally free!!!

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jeah

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After 11 years I am finally free. Free from opiates, alcohol, benzos, cigarettes and cannabis. Free from SAD, GAD and all of my shitty drug induced anxiety. Why did I live like this everyday for 11 years? My God I don't know. I am back riding MTB, actively looking for a real job, taking great care of my family and have been having dreams for the 1st time since I was 18.

It took 104 fever and 2 weeks of influenza to make me finally realize that drugs REALLY have been making me feel like shit. Its been 3 weeks since I got over the flu, so 5 weeks completely clean. Back at the gym, riding 150 miles a week, back on the surfboard. Fiancee' still smokes, takes her benzos and her seroquel. Luckily I was heavy into sports until I first smoked weed at 19 so I have a great structure to fall back on.

So I am still not against drugs. Not one bit. I just could not control my drug use and be a functional member of society. and hey, I always figured when the day that I quit came, I would still have a psychedelic journey once in a while when the time is right. I still plan to do that.

I feel fucking great. thank you influenza.
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Congratulations mate, you must be so pleased with yourself as its not easy to quit all those drugs and the life that goes with them.
So once again, well done mate you should be so proud of yourself.
 
Dude you sould realy stop eseshially with dissotiv/psychedelicas. Lol I am cleen for 7 weeks now of DXM even though I only took it 6 fucking times in low doses pletau 2 every 2 weeks. I had a mad ass 2 week trip afterthat that the side effkts srated showing which was lie being high for 2 more weeks. After the 6 weeks I felt pretty much normal agin I still feel the mental addiction and I cant picture aces vey good anymore :(

I am totally against drugs cause they change you if your on drugs your not your self your not hte person your supose to be you prety much rewin alot of things. I fucked up great realtion ship with weed then Not learning out of that I rewined new ones with DXM.

I really hope that I will soon be able to piture the face my girl again :(
 
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