Im finally clean off evreything for 6 months!

[totach]

Hi my fellow bluelighters its bin a while. I caught a direct sale charge back in november and wound up getting mandated to a inpatient program on jan 5. I got a 12 month mandation and so far i have completed 6. I am allowed to go to work now so that is how i am wrighting this post. I cant even start to explain what a humbling experience this is because i am lucky to say that i grew up a privledged child and had evreything i ever needed and this program is like a homeless shelter at best. I am lucky im mandated or else i would have never stayed there no way. Now that i am almost done and have 6 months clean off evreything pot and suboxone included i feel like catching that charge was the best thing that could have happened to me .True defenition to the term god works in mysterious ways . It feels good to finally be clean i used to always post threads on bluelight complaining bout how i cant get clean and bluelight has helped me alot in my hard times so i just wanted to come here and give a update that im doing well. In no way do i feel any better then anybody else cuz i have 6 months clean cuz in reality that aint shit compared to the rest of my life but it defenetly is a start. I wish evreybody out there the best.

By the way if people dont know me i was doin atleast 3 buns a day of heroin and between 4-8mg of xanax for almost 9 years im 26 now so it was a tough kick.

 

[villian]

That is great man! I knew you had it in you. Keep on fighting the good fight.

 

[totach]

Thanks Villian it feels good to see somebody say that to me for a change cuz im used to always telling other people that. Its also nice to see some of the older members still around ive bin around since like 2005 and all i see is new people now i hope all is well with you.

 

[maxalfie]

Well done on your six months clean time mate. Non drug users think six months is no time at all but those of us that use drugs know that that 6 months without using is a hell of a long time.
Keep up the great work and turn those 6 months into 12 months.
You give those of us struggling with our usage the realisation that it is possible to stop using.

 

[jasonmccarthy5]

Inspiring to me! Way to go!

 

[itsok]

totach, wow, I am truly impressed with not only your being 6 months clean, but your positive attitude about what has happened. It seems like the program jump started a good way of living and you are wise enough to recognize it. very inspiring.

id like to hear more "i quit h success stories."

 

[Pale Rider]

Well done my friend a positive attitude and positive mind, stay focused and stay safe...

 

[GodSpeedK]

Well done, man. It's undeniably a great achievement!

 

[OverDone]

Fuckng AWESOME, totach!!!!!!!! I love hearing this!

I remember you were struggling for a while and now you're actually doing it proper!

If you were here I would give ya a keytag and a hug. %)

 

[RedLeader]

Wow, this is great news! I'm glad that you've made it 6 months (and that you survived that kick...makes me cringe just thinking about how rough that must have been).

I think that once you get past this stage of your legal consequences and can work toward a living environment that expresses your new interests and new life, it will be significantly easier. The guilt and shame will not be as much in the forefront of your mind, and you'll feel even more "alive."

Just keep going. It's a time right now where you just have to let the days add up. I know it's hard being patient, especially when you are eager to really start living but are still bound by legal shackles. Try and stay busy and let the time pass as soon as possible.

I am very glad that you're clean!

 

[theartofwar]

Hey man congrats that is an awesome journey! I wish you success long term and a happy life , addiction is a bitch and no one deserves the misery that comes with it

 

[totach]

Thanks alot guys for makeing me feel good. I really hope i can continue on this path to recovery

Being sober is really a wonderful thing it is just very hard to achieve once addicted

I honestly would have never made it if i was not mandated it was really hard i did not get a minute of sleep for a long long time

To be honest even after 6 months i still dont feel right i still have no energy and my legs still have rls but its alot better then before

I hope that in another 6 months i will be %100 n looking forward to that helps me stay clean

Dont get me wrong even mandated people cant stay sober there a crazy turnover there but like 20 people a week on average relapse and go to jail

Anyways i wish evreybody out there the best and for the people trying to get clean you can do it just stay strong and stay focused

 

[It's a baby!]

Awesome! I am about a month and a couple of weeks clean and I just can't wait to feel in a great mood again without drugs. Congratulations!