dopeydreams
Greenlighter
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- Nov 15, 2013
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Im a long time lurker and a huge fan of bluelight, not only for the harm-reduction advice and wealth of knowledge here, but also for the sense of community......Guess i should introduce myself and become more involved in this amazing forum. Im 29 and began smoking herb in middle school to help with my struggle with depression. Coming from an etnically diverse low income area aparently is comparable to leprosy when viewed from a tight knit rural christian community so i turned to drugs as an escape.
Eventually i found a new home in tge md/va/wv area and my experimentation became addiction. After dabbling with lsd, cocaine, and heroin , i found myself expelled from school due to allegedly being in possesion of coke, weed , benzos, and oxy. Shortly after i aquired a ged, some college credits, and being young and dumb i decided to start hustling here and there to survive. Next thing i knew i had a 7g day iv cocaine/
240+ mg oxy/benzo/alcohol addiction at 18 which led to my first overdose. Even though i was destroying myself i continued using steadily until a combination of extacy abuse and stimulant od landed me in a behavioral health unit due to extreme depression and anxiety/stimulant induced psychosis. I was clean for some time then found heroin.
Fast forward to the age of 23.....I was steadily using heroin,benzos, and alcohol yet rather financially stable. I owned a mobile home, classic car, and was maintaining. Until i was robbed by a close friend who fell out tge day after then was subsequently raided and charged with manufacturing for a small indoor grow. The poluce executed my dog, and siezed everything i owned. I did my bid and was released clean and sober. Then i met a beautiful dancer who liked opiates. Turns out she was a schizophrenic stripper who i fell in love with. So from age 25-28 i shot heroin daily not only for recreational use, but to combat my depression after realizing my fiance was tricking on the side, 3 miscarriages due to use, and my loss of self worth.
Now ive been away from her for about a year due to a 7 month incarceration, and ive been cycling through iv meth, iv cocaine, and iv heroin(5 overdoses in my 11 year opiate addiction smh) to avoid being stuck on one drug since being released. Use ghb and benzos to crash. Its been a long rough road of withdrawals, depression, homelessness, and instability, bouncing from seedy motel to seedy motel.
Well thats me....im at the tail end of a 35 day meth binge in which ive slept maybe 30-40 hrs total.....and feel like death...so ima try n get some gbl and take a nap.
Eventually i found a new home in tge md/va/wv area and my experimentation became addiction. After dabbling with lsd, cocaine, and heroin , i found myself expelled from school due to allegedly being in possesion of coke, weed , benzos, and oxy. Shortly after i aquired a ged, some college credits, and being young and dumb i decided to start hustling here and there to survive. Next thing i knew i had a 7g day iv cocaine/
240+ mg oxy/benzo/alcohol addiction at 18 which led to my first overdose. Even though i was destroying myself i continued using steadily until a combination of extacy abuse and stimulant od landed me in a behavioral health unit due to extreme depression and anxiety/stimulant induced psychosis. I was clean for some time then found heroin.
Fast forward to the age of 23.....I was steadily using heroin,benzos, and alcohol yet rather financially stable. I owned a mobile home, classic car, and was maintaining. Until i was robbed by a close friend who fell out tge day after then was subsequently raided and charged with manufacturing for a small indoor grow. The poluce executed my dog, and siezed everything i owned. I did my bid and was released clean and sober. Then i met a beautiful dancer who liked opiates. Turns out she was a schizophrenic stripper who i fell in love with. So from age 25-28 i shot heroin daily not only for recreational use, but to combat my depression after realizing my fiance was tricking on the side, 3 miscarriages due to use, and my loss of self worth.
Now ive been away from her for about a year due to a 7 month incarceration, and ive been cycling through iv meth, iv cocaine, and iv heroin(5 overdoses in my 11 year opiate addiction smh) to avoid being stuck on one drug since being released. Use ghb and benzos to crash. Its been a long rough road of withdrawals, depression, homelessness, and instability, bouncing from seedy motel to seedy motel.
Well thats me....im at the tail end of a 35 day meth binge in which ive slept maybe 30-40 hrs total.....and feel like death...so ima try n get some gbl and take a nap.
