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Halfmoon

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So "hello" to everyone. Am i new to drugs? Hell no...like many of you, started young. I've always managed to be a functional druggy. All through high school, work, finally college (non traditional student), now been a "professional" for 15 years. At age 43, I've went through my share of failed relationships. Single dad of two kids. Started late so one is 15 and the other 4 :) i'm a good dad, wish i could offer my kids a good mom but thats not happenin....some things never change though..seems like I always got to be on sumpin! I know why, but ya can't always fix what's been done. Drug of choice the last 7 years has been meth. I've not been high for 3 days...it's not terribly difficult but i have that little voice in me saying "get a bag." I know if I'm ever going to have money for us to do more "family" stuff and have good friends i can't do this shit anymore. And if i ever want to retire, it's got to stop period. I'm not getting anywhere but going backwards financially. I guess you could call me a barely functional addict at this point. So that's the short story of me..
 
Welcome Halfmoon. I can relate to the struggle of wanting to do better for family, but still feeling those urges to take substances.
 
Hi, I just found this forum today and I'm so glad I did. I've been a heroin addict for 14 years. I have a job and two kids and a great family but my partner died in March. As you probably know, this double life is hard and I'm really lonley too. I only have one friend who knows what I do. When I smoke heroin I feel guilty but without it I'm empty. I take pregabs prescribed but I also like benzos. This double life can't go on. I need to sort myself out but without heroin, I don't know who I am anymore.
 
Crazybitch2612 said:
Hi, I just found this forum today and I'm so glad I did. I've been a heroin addict for 14 years. I have a job and two kids and a great family but my partner died in March. As you probably know, this double life is hard and I'm really lonley too. I only have one friend who knows what I do. When I smoke heroin I feel guilty but without it I'm empty. I take pregabs prescribed but I also like benzos. This double life can't go on. I need to sort myself out but without heroin, I don't know who I am anymore.
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Welcome to Bluelight. So sorry to hear of your loss. I know it can be hard to imagine coping with life without your drug of choice,but it can be done. There are lots of people here who can give good advice in the sober living forum.
 
Thanks for the warm welcomes. Honestly, my eyes "welled" up a bit just now because I now really know how alone I've felt. It's been hard. Good to be amongst those that can relate!
 
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