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If you could go back and never do a single drug of abuse would you?

I wouldn't really change anything, drugs or otherwise. Can learn from everything whether it is pleasant or not.
 
I'd like to say no, I have no regrets, but in reality I do have a bunch of regrets. It's a tough question but at the end of the day if I could go back I'd probably go harder, drugs changed my perspective on life and everything it involves, they made me the who I am and although I don't necessarialy like or dislike the person I've become I'm content with who I am and the choices I've made to get me here. If drugs were taken out of the equation I would be a completely different person and I think I'd want that. Really though you can't change the past so there's no point dwelling on 'ifs & buts' spend that time on accepting there's nothing you can do except change the future.
 
If I could go back, I'd do less idiotic drug combos which resulted in panic attacks and near death experiences and changed the way certain drugs effect me now. I'd make sure I didn't accidentally overdose on ritalin...and I'd respect psychedelics far more to begin with rather than learning the hard way...but I suppose those things had to be learned by experience.
 
I'd love to have my house, money, cars, stuff, license, job, credit back but atleast I got to feel happiness and satisfaction for a while. Before using lived in anxiety 24/7 worrying about everything just hating life so it was nice to have something to look forward to other than just sitting around hoping to die. Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all...
Wouldn't trade those experiences for anything.
 
I dont know. I'm half way between accepting my life's outcome and still regreting. I regret it because I know I could have been someone completely different. I would be a functioning contributing member of society. I could go do the things I am supposed to be able to do instead of procrastinating till it is nearly too late to even deal with it.

At first I couldnt really think of anything I had gained from my abuse, but now taking a deeper look i think i did. Because of my use i am now have a goal for school - substance abuse councilor. I would never have gotten together with my boyfriend. I wouldnt have realized how disgusted with society I am and I wouldnt have realized that I am really just interested in being happy with my life, and I probably wouldnt have realized I needed to find some type of spiritual support. Not to mention some self realizations I came to. Even though alot of those places were dark and lonely, I know alot about who I am, kind of.

Now are all of those "realizations" important or life changing? maybe not in the eyes of society but it actually really helped me. I guess in the end my use really showed me how much help i needed and that all i was really looking for was happiness.

So I guess no I wouldnt change my choices. Yes my choices and struggles cause me frustration and annoyance day to day but I guess thats just life.
 
zombiesarepeaceful said:
If I could go back, I'd do less idiotic drug combos which resulted in panic attacks and near death experiences and changed the way certain drugs effect me now. I'd make sure I didn't accidentally overdose on ritalin...and I'd respect psychedelics far more to begin with rather than learning the hard way...but I suppose those things had to be learned by experience.
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I think that's the key - you had to learn by experience and I am sure it has made you a far more responsible drug-taker and possibly changed your overall outlook. I know my mistakes have had that effect on me. It is impossible not to have any regrets (if I did, I'd regret that I had lived such a cautious life that I had never had cause for regret!) but our experiences make us the people we are now :)
 
If I could go back and never touch alcohol, I would. I've never had a serious 'problem' with it, per se, but I feel it's done nothing but make me stupider, fatter, and fueled my pessimism...

... Opiates, however, are a different story. Mother Morphine is the only love affair of my life that I can confidently say t'will be 'til death do we part. But nevertheless, she is a strict mistress... There is none kinder while we are together, but when I neglect her, the retribution is harsh... And I adore her for it. She is the most poetic of vices, to be sure...
 
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