Alprazolam8129
Bluelighter
Alright, i'm gonna vent a lil but read on if you like.
I've been through alot since the age of 13, im 19 now and have my own house and a job at a snowboarding mountian in the winter and as a paintball worker in the spring and summer.
I have money, i felt what real love feels like, ive tryed so many drugs, im suprized i'm still alive.. I once made a list and there were 45 exactly But i'm disgraced about it, but i'm not gonna get off topic. Im just always searching for more. I felt the feelings of sex, i had a kid that had to be killed for abortion cause i just wasn't ready. It was just a one night stand.. but then after that i found my first love and if anyone saw my profile pic before you seen me and her before.
I thought we were gonna last forever, but it turned out for a year and 9 months she was fucking with my head and lost feelings for me, which obviously when she said she loved me she said it in vein. I remember when i first came to this site and learned all this shit about drugs.. but who knew i was just destroying myself even more, even though its a "harm reduction" site. Don't get me wrong, i love the site and all but. I belive i have extreme anxiety, and severe depression and social anxiety. And i'm addicted to this life of getting any type of drugs to get me spaced away from my problems. But it always comes back. I'm just asking for ideas and just..
help.
I've been through alot since the age of 13, im 19 now and have my own house and a job at a snowboarding mountian in the winter and as a paintball worker in the spring and summer.
I have money, i felt what real love feels like, ive tryed so many drugs, im suprized i'm still alive.. I once made a list and there were 45 exactly But i'm disgraced about it, but i'm not gonna get off topic. Im just always searching for more. I felt the feelings of sex, i had a kid that had to be killed for abortion cause i just wasn't ready. It was just a one night stand.. but then after that i found my first love and if anyone saw my profile pic before you seen me and her before.
I thought we were gonna last forever, but it turned out for a year and 9 months she was fucking with my head and lost feelings for me, which obviously when she said she loved me she said it in vein. I remember when i first came to this site and learned all this shit about drugs.. but who knew i was just destroying myself even more, even though its a "harm reduction" site. Don't get me wrong, i love the site and all but. I belive i have extreme anxiety, and severe depression and social anxiety. And i'm addicted to this life of getting any type of drugs to get me spaced away from my problems. But it always comes back. I'm just asking for ideas and just..
help.