I want to kill myself! WTF is going on?

[deadendgame]

So, by reading my post you guys know my situation. I'm a 25 year old schizophrenic who has frequent panic attacks. I tell people something is wrong with me but no one listens. I want to go to the hospital or go to an institution but no one is giving me transport. My parents think it's laziness but in actuality, I have no control over when these panic attacks happen and my schizophrenic symptoms. As I mentioned, because of this shit, I cannot do any sort of productive work. My parents are about to kick me out of the house, and I need to think of a plan before I die. I want to go to an institution. The question is can I stay there forever? I don't really give a shit. I really don't want to die, but I will be relieved if someone just shoot me in the head right now. I don't care if I go to hell. I seen hell. Hell is right here!