Mental Health I want to cry but I can't. Tips ?

[Achten]

A long time ago, I never cried. Three years ago I encountered psychedelics and they helped me cry alot, releasing negative emotions. It really felt good.
Since then, I really was in touch with my emotions and could laugh and cry, especially with music and series like Lost and Twin Peaks.

Last months, I've gotten a bit of bad news (relapsed on a physical condition) and I can feel how my not crying anymore actually perpetuates the negative cycle I'm in. That's how it feels to me at least.
Also having a good laugh is a *long* time ago.
Also releasing emotions through music or series doesn't work anymore.

It's not that I'm depressed. I may have some depressive episodes but nothing major.
I believe the not crying attributes to me developing a myofascial trigger point in the scaleni muscle in the neck (mental stuff that can't get out, and gets stuck in the physical body), which is the cause of a lot of physical discomfort.

Any tips beside the regular google ones ? ("think about something sad, get your eyes in front of a fan", ..)
I actually tried reading Be Here Now on 4HOMET and mushrooms (this did the trick for me sometimes) but although I did get some tears of relief, it wasn't really cathartical (is that word?) .

Peace out !

 

[spork]

Could you maybe try another way to get the negativity out? Writing about the negative feelings or maybe even doing some painting might help.

 

[Allein]

I got really concerned about this issue a while back, it came to a head when I lost my Grandmother.

I do suffer persistent depression and ADs may have played some role, but I'm not sure the reasons and background are that important.

I'm coming to conclude that to some extent I am actively suppressing emotion due to fear of not being able to control it, the lack of crying is one of many symptoms of this and focusing on it alone won't be a solution...for me at least.

Seeking means of expressing emotion via music or art is something I have struggled to get started on for lots of reasons, mainly I just haven't ever had much interest in an art form that I could actually do myself. It's still something I believe would help me in many ways and at Christmas my partner got me a one day course in jewellery making, I'd never considered it before but I'm really looking forward to giving it a go, so there must be something for everyone

 

[Foreigner]

Is it possible that crying is not the kind of energy release you actually need? Maybe the trapped emotion looks more like anger and frustration. You would know better than me though.

Do you feel really withdrawn, and are sensitive when you're around other people? In eastern medicine, we say tears are the liquid of the heart. The energy of emotions wells up until they spill over into the heart, and are released. Sometimes the block is in the heart centre, not the emotional centre. An open heart centre is necessary for any kind of emotional expression, otherwise it has no outlet and gets trapped. Sometimes when people experience sheer beauty, or a moment of truth that goes to their core, their heart opens with a woosh and it melts all those contained emotions through tears. For this reason, anything that connects you with your love again might do the trick.

Watching TV or listening to emotional music is just going to stir the energy in the emotions. It's rare for that kind of media to elevate a person to the heart level. You need to do or experience something that brings you into your heart. Receiving an act of genuine kindness or compassion can sometimes do this for people too. Whatever it is that touches you on that level should work.

In other cases, people have been acculturated to hold difficult emotions in and never let themselves cry, so the emotional/heart pathway is not as strong. If they need to cry it's a lot harder, until the burden becomes so great that they have a breakthrough.

Either way, I believe this is something that you passively receive. Crying is not an action, or something you go to. It comes to you, through non-resistance, surrender, humility, and allowing. After you cry, the burden is replaced with gratitude.

 

[DOB]

its brain chemicals
Risperidone,on this shit i couldnt cry,it was strange,its like if i was emotionless robot

do u have music talent? how about make some dark music,u can put any emotion into music

 

[Achten]

Thanks for the replies. I don't consider myself creative, although I do like creative thinking and making connections most people wouldn't, but that's still ego stuff, IMO.

I had a dry needling treatment and after that felt slightly more emotion. Hopefully a few sessions will bring me back to myself.

As someone suggested, I am frustrated, as I've been physically ill for the larger part of 2years now without doctors being able to pinpoint what's wrong with me, and just recently found what could be a cure (the dry needling of trigger points).
I want to get better fast, but again, that's ego stuff. I just need to let it happen.

thanks all.