TDS I really don't know what I put myself into

dankhead88

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So I've been keeping this quiet from a lot of friends and even my own parents that I'm currently living with. Recently, I've been arrested for methamphetamine possession which is a felony in the state of Georgia. I sometimes wonder if I really deserved this, because of a recent relapse of heroin and methamphetamine. Now, my habits were much worse back then, but recently, I've started back and I was able to maintain my use, not getting a consistent habit, only to deal with moderate to mild withdrawals from heroin. The meth i really don't use too often compared to how heavy I was using in the past.

This all happened during a break from my job at around 2 in the morning.

I acquired a bag of some dope, and I've IVd it about 3 times due to it's low potency, until I started getting cotton fever somehow and I started shaking and shivering violently, so I decided to take a quick walk outside of my car.

Now this is the part that really bugs me. I am quite sure I hit my head real hard on a surface of some sort. I don't quite remember how I hit my head, but I do remember that after hitting my head, my coordination was really off and I could not run, walk, or any of that sort, but try my best to crawl out of public sight. I make it to the back of the office buildings and I rest it out.

Somehow I blackout, and I end up waking up near the curb of the street where there are some flowers growing on the side. My vision is god awful and coordination is off by a long mile. I'm covered in sweat and even managed to sweat through my apron and pants. It's really hard focusing and I cannot stand up straight without the sake of my heartrate going up in dangerous levels and getting dizzy. I ended up falling quite a bit, getting scrapes and bruises on my arms. I'm really trying to get out of public view, out of worry just in case someone sees me.

As I'm desperately trying to find my car to turn the A/C on to cool off due to running hot temperatures and sweating profusely, I end up getting lost, despite how close my car is due to my loss of coordination and horrible vision I was experiencing.

I thought I found my car but I've only ended up sitting on a pile of branches, cutting my arms. I eventually have no more energy and start having muscle spasms.

Unable to control the spasms, it was starting to become painful and uncomfortable. Eventually, I felt sick to the point of non-stop vomiting and it's hard for me to stop and try to catch some air. This continues for what I think felt like an eternity but I think it was about 5 minutes.

After the vomiting, I find some sort of relief and lay down. Not knowing where I was, it felt like I was laying in the street(which I was). I kept saying to myself that I wanted to end this misery and started crying. At that point I wanted to die. About an hour later(I think), I hear a voice. A guy had found me laying facedown in the street with my hands kind of twitching. It felt like a dream, but it was all reality. Everything felt like a dream after hitting my head. Wasn't sure if I ever went to sleep in the first place. The guy kept saying. "Hello?", "Can you get up?", "You need to get out of the street." in which I replied "I'm trying", "it's too hard", or something along those lines. At that point, I was kind of nodding off, but eventually, I regain some of my composure, where I can stand up again. Getting up from the puddle of sweat I created, I can walk again but it's really hard to walk straight. I walk only to see a police car roll up in front of me. I couldn't make the car out, but the flashing blue lights were a dead give away. Unable to see the officer, I was only able to see his outlines and some minor details due to my vision being fucked up. He asks, what I was on and I only shrugged my shoulders. He tells me to put my arms out to see track marks and tells me to put my hands on his vehicle. He searches me to find my bag of dope, a mixing bowl, saline bottle, and a syringe. He then proceeds to handcuff me and then he tests out some of the paraphernalia I had with his testing kit, only to find out it has methamphetamine residue. He decides to also call an ambulance in the process.

The ambulance arrives, and they rule it out as an "opiate overdose". They let my boss know I'm getting arrested, which luckily he is also a good friend of mine. My boss arrives and finds me covered in sweat and vomit. He needed a ride from me so,I let him take my car without the risk of it getting impounded. My heartrate is around 160-170, and they think it's from the meth, but the meth was consumed more than 14 hours ago. I've had methamphetamine before, and the amount I took wouldn't last that long. I would need a massive amount or would need to binge all day. I normally always check my pulse on meth and the effects wore off a while ago. I feel that my heartrate is high due to anxiety and panic. They proceed to put me in the ambulance in handcuffs and give me saline solution. It's 4 in the morning now. They said I was very lucky that I didn't die. At that point my vision was getting a little better, maybe because of the lights. They were debating on either giving me naloxone or a benzo and they weren't sure what to give me, but I'm glad they gave me saline because I felt very dehydrated. I ended up in the hospital for 12 hours and then went to jail afterwards.

I was in jail for 3 days and got a signature bond. Right now I am in pretrial and I'm not sure what to do at this point. I cannot afford a lawyer and neither can my parents as they are in debt and bankrupt, but I am trying not to let them know what happened because I don't want anymore family stress and money is really hard right now. I did tell them I was at the hospital due to a head injury, but that's all they know.

I'm afraid of getting my license suspended, because that is my only means of transportation of getting to my job and at this point I'm just looking for advice from people with similar experiences. I've never had a felony(I do have 3 misdemeanors) and I really want to get a career by going back to school or hell, even get other jobs without having to worry about my records.

Much advice is appreciated. Sigh, I'm just hoping I can get this expunged or dropped down to a misdemeanor. I don't know. This has been in my mind for a while.
 
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your story really strikes a nerve in me, ive had similar experiences from OD'ing and being found by family etc then having the ambulance called to the house and going to hospital thinking im dying

and the trauma from a situation like that is pretty bad for me it was a month or two until it wasn't still having repercussions from thinking about it a lot, or just having people view and treat me differently

i'm sure someone will be able to suggest some college group or service which provides lawyers for not much money (do you have any friends or family you can borrow a small sum who you can trust?)

the best advice for you right now is to live in the present and accept each moments as its own, and give no weight to the past (we cant change it), and the future is built from our present

if you manage to get clean eventually, i'm sure if you have faith in your self you will find a happy life and where you fit in society without needing to consider the jobs i believe you are unable to have due to having a felony, who wants to be a banker anyway? you sound like you are around my age as well and I have nfi what im going to do in the future but i'm sure it will work out down the road if i keep making my present positive thing will work out on the road.

perhaps if you spend some time in jail you will still be able to cultivate some skills and hobbies, or even friendships etc to make you time away from society not completely wasted.

It really sucks that drug use is treated as a criminal as opposed to a public health issue :?, but i wish you luck with getting your charge dropped down <3 this could even be a positive situation long term if it helps reduce your drug use because i remember from similar situations that when things like that happen, your getting a bit blase and out of hand etc with your drug usage when they happen

exercise, diet, meditation are my mainstays for getting more clean
 
OP, I am really sorry to hear about your experience, which sounds like a nightmare. I agree with mysterie that the best thing that you can do right now is to stay as positive as you can in the present. I don't know why you would get your license suspended since you were not driving but I'm not familiar with all the BS coming out of the criminal "justice" system. My son's experience with public defenders was always good. If you feel it would be better to hire a private lawyer (most believe it is) then see if you could find one who will take payments over time (rare, but they do exist).

Do not stress too much over the felony. My brother has created a very successful career as an electrician after nearly going to prison for life in a three strikes state after his two drug felonies. In most states a drug felony can be wiped off your record in 7 years if there are no further arrests or drug charges.

Right now, try to go back to work, get good sleep and eat well. Stay in the present and try to let go of worrying, which is ironically the best way to influence the future. Again, I am really sorry that you had to experience this.<3
 
Mysterie, I do not have any friends or families that I can borrow money from unfortunately, but I suppose I'll just have to keep my head up and keep moving. I've just never had this serious of a charge before and it seriously scares the living hell out of me and I do agree with you about how the public treats drug users as a criminal rather than a medical situation. I seriously do not get the laws in the US

herbavore, unfortunately in Georgia, most get their license suspended for drug possession whether you were in a vehicle or not. My friend got his suspended for walking with a joint, but yeah. I'm not trying to stress over it too much now(even though it's still in the back of my head). I'm trying my best to keep my head up and still going to save money for education.

thanks for the support guys :)
 
I had my license suspended for 6 months for a pot charge.(the south sucks dont come here.) Since it sounds like you still have a job and a car i recomend that you consult attorneys in your area and find one that will let you do a payment plan. If that doesnt work get your public defender to delay everything as much as possible while you get up loot for a decent lawyer. Here in the south without a lawyer you mine as well be fucked especially if your not white. (Sad but true). Oh and you need to tell the parents they will find out one way or the other.
 
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