Spencer
Bluelight Crew
*I've recently taken to carrying around a notebook to write in should inspiration decide to strike. As I was writing this, and remembering all this stuff, It didn't hurt anymore, but I still wanted to put it down on paper, just to remember. So this is the first "poem" (it's not a poem, its just my thoughts written out somewhat structurally) I've commited to paper in almost 5 years. enjoy.*
We all came for varying reasons
I came only for you
Embraces were given freely, happily, and often
I only wanted to hold you
And so I waited until once again I was in your arms.
That was perhaps the best 20 seconds of my life.
I couldn't bare to let go, but you already had
long before you arrived.
It didn't seem right that you could be right next to me and still feel so very far away. That you could be across the room and the distance of the enitre country was still between us.
And when disaster struck, I remember wanting only to hold you again, to comfort you, and be there for you, and assure you everything would be alright. But you had fallen into the arms of another, and I was to blind to see.
And so still, even as I was leaving, all I wanted was to hold you in my arms, to feel you close to me one more time.
But you were no where to be found.
And I never got to say goodbye.
We all came for varying reasons
I came only for you
Embraces were given freely, happily, and often
I only wanted to hold you
And so I waited until once again I was in your arms.
That was perhaps the best 20 seconds of my life.
I couldn't bare to let go, but you already had
long before you arrived.
It didn't seem right that you could be right next to me and still feel so very far away. That you could be across the room and the distance of the enitre country was still between us.
And when disaster struck, I remember wanting only to hold you again, to comfort you, and be there for you, and assure you everything would be alright. But you had fallen into the arms of another, and I was to blind to see.
And so still, even as I was leaving, all I wanted was to hold you in my arms, to feel you close to me one more time.
But you were no where to be found.
And I never got to say goodbye.
I know exactly how that feels, when you'd do anything to just make things the way they were, even if it's just for that one moment. I held on, hoping and waiting for that for so long. 
