So, recently I have been going through a really hard breakup, among other things. It has gotten to the point where I literally cannot sleep at night. My mind will just not shut down. I was seeing a psychiatrist who had me on gabapentin (which I'm still on, and helps to a degree, and I still would like to continue taking it) but despite me trying to tell him what I was going through, he kept trying to prescribe drugs like Zyprexa, Remeron and Seroquel, and other drugs in the same class. I tried all of them, and they simply just do not work for me. They only make the problem worse, and just make me drowsy, but I still couldnt sleep, or so drowsy that I wake up even more tired than before, which is the case for Seroquel. He refused to prescribe benzos, because in the past, I had problems managing them because I was drug seeking. However, I have been clean for almost 2 years now, and have no desire to "get high" I just want some peace of mind. I recently acquired some Xanax bars from a friend, and that seems to be the only thing that calms my mind down enough to sleep. I also tried to suggest Lyrica, since it's in the same class as gabapentin, which he was willing to prescribe, but he refused the Lyrica as well. The thing is, I've tried all the Zyprexa, Trazadone, Seroquel type drugs and they really fuck with my head. Like I said, I'm not looking for a fix, I'm just looking for some peace of mind. I am about to see a new Psych on Wednesday, and from the reviews I have read about him, everyone said he actually listens, and lets the patients have input in their treatment. However, when I do see him, I just want to be able to come and be able to explain to him my situation, and not have him just try to give me more of the same. It's getting to the point where I can't afford to keep coming back every week if some random medication doesn't work. I want something I know for a fact will work, and I know benzos work, and I have a feeling Lyrica will too, just because of how gabapentin works for me. I am tired of seeing the sun come up and down everyday. It's really wearing on me. So I was wondering if anyone had any tips on what I can say to this new doctor to help him understand my situation, and that I am not drug seeking, I just want to be able to function normally again without constantly thinking about my ex. Any help is greatly appreciated.