I just need a break from all this anxiety bullshit. I always deal with my brain telling me "when this is over (anything like bowling, etc) you will look back on it and be thinking about how you said this" and sure enough, I look back on it when the event is over and I put myself in the place I was imagining myself in. It just is a complicated way of saying nothing lasts forever and it just makes me upset about the way I think about time. I just wish I could not worry about it and be happy.
