I messed up

[Chosenone23]

After a year clean off heroin I slipped up it was put in front of me and I gave in tried to stop after a two day bender but fucked up and bought more the problem is my girlfriend who had also been clean for a year and half relapsed with me she's weaker then I am but as you can see I gave in and feel responsible for her now I'm writing this as I am so angry at myself that I feel like I am just a fuck up for life but also brought someone else down in sorry for venting

 

[swilow]

After a year clean off heroin I slipped up it was put in front of me and I gave in tried to stop after a two day bender but fucked up and bought more the problem is my girlfriend who had also been clean for a year and half relapsed with me she's weaker then I am but as you can see I gave in and feel responsible for her now I'm writing this as I am so angry at myself that I feel like I am just a fuck up for life but also brought someone else down in sorry for venting

Hey man, no need to apologise- this is the spot to vent if there is one.

Relapses are incredibly common with addictive shit like heroin. Its almost par for the course. Rather than beat yourself up, use your anger and regret as fuel towards preventing a deeper relapse- do you want to go back to addiction? If you do, you'll feel the same regret and anger everyday and that's no way to live. All you can do with mistakes is learn from them.

Regarding your girlfriend; she is not you, you did not inject her, you do not decide for her. She decides. You are not to blame for her decisions. Its just that you love her that makes you feel responsible. But, again, if you use that regret and guilt that you are now feeling as a motivation to avoid getting to this stage again, than you've actually gained something through this relapse.

Be well my friend

 

[Moreaux]

Relapse is part of recovery. A year clean is great! You know what you need to do get sober. Really consider the events leading up to your relapse and develop an action plan for how to handle similar events in the future that don't involve you using. As for your girl friend - that's not your fault. Please don't take responsibility for her actions. She made her decision to use just a you did. If you find that you struggle getting sober together or continuously using, it may be time to reevaluate the relationship. Good luck!

 

[scubasteveo]

Hey man it's a process and they say relapse is part of recovery. I quit drinking a few months ago and dread the day I slip up. All we can do is pick our selves up and keep moving forward. I wish you the best