I have incredible cravings to try cocaine, heroin and drugs of that nature.

[semigenius]

Before I ask my question, let me give you a little background information. I'm sixteen years old. I smoke weed and drink (I've turned into a desperate alcoholic). I've taken Vicodin a couple of times, and experimented with Xanax.

I've been in and out of institutions for drugs (psychiatric hospitals, inpatient rehabs, outpatient rehabs). At these places, I met a lot of kids who did drugs like cocaine and heroin.

Now, I have very strong urges to try heroin, cocaine, ecstasy, etc. I feel like taking everything, excluding meth and crack. Though I don't feel too far away from wanting to take those drugs as well.

So here are my questions.

1. What can I do to fight these urges? The only reason I'm not taking these drugs is because I can't find them and I have absolutely no money. But I don't feel as if that is going to cut it when I'm eighteen years old and my parents don't control how much money I keep in my pocket.

2. This is unrelated to the main question, but I am curious. Do you personally think that I belong in a rehab? I'm currently in an outpatient rehab (I go 5 times a week).

 

[NoPromiseMade]

Dont kill yourself.

 

[Dusk]

Do you think you should be in rehab?

What are your reasons for smoking weed and drinking?

 

[totach]

i think u know the anser to your own ?. My 1st rehab stint was when i was 19 and i would give anything to go back in time and keep my ass there i ran away after a few days.Now i am 24 and struggling man you hav no idea whats its like to live like a junkie and yes that is what u will become eventually.The day u start doin dope in my opion is the day u go 2 sleep and when u finally do get clean if you get clean is when you wake up.I feel like i went 2 sleep when i was 19 and woke up at 24 u know what a shitty feeling that is.All the new responsobilities u neeed 2 take care of when u r 24 as opposed to 19 i was not ready for but the last 5 years just flew by i didnt even realise im getting so old(i know 24 is not that old).Anyways like i said u know the anser 2 ur ?.
i wish you the best of luck man atleast u know u hav a problem and thats a good thing to pick up on at the age of 16.I wish i read bluelight forums when i was 16 i think it woulda helped me not become a junkie this site is amazing and i think the most helpful for youngsters like urself.

 

[Lolie]

One aspect of rehab which people rarely acknowledge is that it brings you into contact with people and experiences you might not otherwise encounter and encourages you to trust those people, and many of them are not trustworthy.

I've seen plenty of people brought undone by friendships formed in rehab, psych wards and prison so I think you need to intentionally distance yourself from those who glamourise and romanticise their behaviour - look where it's gotten them.

I think that you need to discuss these anticipatory urges for drug use yet to come with whoever manages your case overall - especially if those urges are being fed by other people in rehab discussing their own use. If rehab's making you crave drugs more - even ones you haven't yet taken - then it mightn't be the most appropriate strategy for dealing with your existing drug issues.

 

[stuckinaloop]

Yo honestly...ill tell you right now heroin is a shitty high for how much it'll fuck your life up.

Coke...well in my case I never had a bad problem with it but a lot of people I know went from coke to crack to broke. Some of them kicked the habit.

Opiate habits seem to never die atleast not with a lot of perseverance.

It sounds like you have an addictive personality..do you belong in rehab/outpatient? Well it doesn't sound like your hearts in it if your drinking heavily. But in all reality, how can it hurt you? If your parents got the money and love id stick to rehab.

Stay away from all the drugs you see other people goin in for, chances are they will be battling that addictino your whole life. Right now you just have a minor craving, you have no idea how shit like h changes your brain.

I was just like you just like everyone else..noone plans to be addicted or plans to be an h addict

Starts out with some hydrocodone, never really was into it. Smoked weed heavily and drank hard for years. Went through my experimentation stage, got into coke a little but kicked the small habit i had (in retrospect). Was into psychedelics, tried xanax a few times, never enjoyed it.

When I started doin oxy, that shit changed my life. Opiates just beat me down. I never saw my self IV'in shit, and I went from spendin a few bucks on some pain killers to easily a $1k a week opiate habit. Shit didn/t change for the better when I introduced my self to the needle. Now I, and EVERYONE I know who ever touched opiates is battling an addiction, on top of that I got this recent benzo habit I gotto kick..cause Ive just been replacing H since I got off methadone and back on suboxone.

Even if you are not sure about belonging in outpatient ask your self: how is this going to hurt me in any way? You're young and if you make the right choices you can enjoy life.

Coke, heroin, its a bullshit high not worth what it'll cost you in the end. Honestly you just end up chasing a high then you end up spending more than you imagine just to stay off being sick.

 

[molly897]

i was the same as you.. i looked for months to for heroin to IV it.. i got everything i wanted except that. the long term effects it has on you is not work it like the above poster said. i have permanent anxiety disorder from MDMA abuse and dopamine deficiency from cocaine abuse

that controls my ambition, motivation, feeling, remorse, love

i smoked a half eighth a week then went to an eighth a day then started blowing coke then eating 3 grams of molly 2 times a week then wanted to make crack but got convinced otherwise, then speedballed, dabbled in pills. i would have IVd heroin and did meth in a heartbeat just bc you don't give a shit about yourself but you will when ur fucked up. yeah you really can just read everyones posts here and it should be enough. although it probably won't be, if you do fuck with these drugs you will know what we're talkin about eventually. yes you belong in rehab. you need to realize these drugs are not good.

 

[wooger]

Hi

If you have an addictive personality (which you might do, if you have intense cravings to try new substances) then it's probably wise to stay away from heroin. I've never used it myself, or tried many opiates, but I've met many people who are able to keep other opiates as a recreational thing... but the heroin users ive met have never been able to do that (they may be many, ive just never met one personally).

I think if you had to try either of the too I would go for coke, as it doesnt produce the physical dependence that opiates do... and for me i found it kinda overrated but if you already feel like you have a problem with substances then I would give them both a miss... addictive personalitys + addictive substances very often can lead to dark places....

 

[mymindisgoo]

op you said it yurself in yur first post. you are a desperate alcoholic. just imagine becoming a opiate addict. if i were you i'd get clean asap, and since yur still pretty young you can have a much better life. i'm 19 and i wish i never started smoking pot, i could be a lot further than i am right now.

 

[footscrazy]

I don't believe you have any idea what incredible cravings are. Just think, however bad they are now, they are just going to get exponentially worse if you use these drugs.

 

[†∆†]

i really dont think you should

 

[Roger&Me]

Do you personally think that I belong in a rehab? I'm currently in an outpatient rehab (I go 5 times a week).

No, that's probably what spawned your obsession with hard drugs in the first place. You're only 16, terrible effects tend to result from pawning off a kid to the drug rehabilitation industry. You should be doing normal kid stuff, not thinking about drugs all the time.

 

[Anita Bagg]

I was like you when I was your age. Obsessed with drugs, for some reason. Now, I tend to think it was from reading about them and hearing others talk about them, seeing them in the media. Something put that in my head.
I ended up doing heroin for the better part of 8 years and let me tell you, it's a pain in the ass.
Coke sucks. The quality is shit these days anyway. It's not even worth doing.

People look and act like assholes when they are on drugs. If you want to see how cool it is to be a junkie, go down to your local soup kitchen and listen to the bullshit they talk about. Their brains are friend from having had no life for so long. All they do is bum around and watch TV.
It might seem like fun when you're young, but I guarantee you there is NOTHING fun about being a middle-aged junkie. You look like shit, your teeth fall out, your place is a mess, you have no life. It's total bullshit. But if you mess with it when you're young, there's a good chance you will still be doing it at 40.
So decide now: if you want to be a pathetic middle-aged loser one day, go for the drugs.

 

[sackynut]

Drugs should be a way to release your self every now and then, have some fun here and there! But its always important to be able to have fun without them. I dont think youre craving them, as much as youre craving the idea. I mean, you cant crave a drug youve never done, especially if youve never done anything like it before.

Also, isnt like 60%+ of the United States' coke cut with levamisole right now? Ewww. Bad CIA, Bad!! What did I tell you about adding de-worming agents to our coke?!?! Thats a time out CIA!