LandsUnknown
Bluelighter
The other day I got extremely drunk and partially blacked out during the evening, with lots of worrisome gaps in my memory. Since this experience and the fact that I had been drinking fairly large amounts of alcohol on a regular/borderline daily basis, I have realized that I need to get my problem under control. During the past several days, I have not had a sip of alcohol which is a first for me during the past several months! For the past 3-6 months, I had been drinking anywhere between a couple beers to a six pack or so of high gravity beer in the course of a day. I had become antsy and irritated when I couldn't drink, but now I'm fine with my several days of sobriety. I have finally come to the conclusion that sobriety is NOT the enemy that it felt like it was before. I feel like even without being drunk, the residual alcohol in my system must've been slowing down my thinking. Now, I feel like my brain is running on more steam than before as I was likely in a near constant state of a sort of 'hangover' even though it didn't feel like it was. It's amazing to see how alcohol was actually dulling down my life rather than improving it! I never would have thought that, I thought it was like my sanctuary when really it was likely partly or fully the source of my problems. Upon stopping my nightly pattern of drinking and drunkenness, I had no negative or uncomfortable symptoms, only a sense of relief and feeling like my brain is running much more smoothly
I'm not sure if I'll even touch alcohol again, I have finally seen it for what it is..... not something that really provided me with anything positive and began to turn into a serious vice that could've led me into health problems if I kept it up.

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