I have a heart condition? I don't know what the fuck to do.

[zombiesarepeaceful]

I'm only fucking 19 years old and found out today after a trip to the er for heart palpitations that there is no known cause, all the labs came back fine.

My EKG said sinus tachycardia, which I've had all my life. I've had normal tachy all my life. It also said left atrial enlargement. And my heart beat is irregular. Not majorly, but it's throwing in an extra beat every now and then. Several times an hour lately. I've had the heart palpitations all my life off and on but they were very minor.

I was told not to drink caffeine. I take adderall daily for adhd. I won't stop taking that unless I'm absolutely told to, cause without it I'm a mindfuck. So what did I do when I got home? Took my afternoon dose of adderall and chugged a glass of mountain dew. Between this new thing going on, my gender dysphoria, and everything...I'm a nervous wreck. I just started hormones a month ago and that's going great, but I'm worried about this now plus I need to find a job and shit. My life is going great yet bad. I don't know what to do. I'm done being scared or cautious. I've felt really suicidal lately but this sorta scared it out of me. I guess when I die, I die. Sounds stupid coming from a 19 year old guy but with heart problems, I think about death. I'm not going to be cautious constantly and live a half assed life. I want to take risks, have fun. I've been too cautious all my life and this is what happens. I'm pretty pissed and scared right now...

If anybody knows anything about this heart condition at all, I'd appreciate any info. I'm googling it right now. It could be harmless for all I know. IT might be helped by meds. But from what I'm reading right now, I'm scared to death and I want to either curl into a ball, or do every stupid thing I've ever wanted to do in my life and die by "accident".

I know there's an afterlife. I've seen it. I won't go into that. I'm not afraid to die. But honestly my biggest fear right now is that I'll die before I'm fully transitioned and the thought of that absolutely kills me.

 

[ocean]

I don't tknow anything about this "heart condition" you mentioned but if you have had it all your life and are just now developing heart palpitations it may be unrelated...... I mean, it could be anxiety....?
I have some hard core palpitations or skipped beats often (at LEAST everyday) and its just anxiety- I won't always feel anxious or like I'm bothered and I will have them.....
Have you been more worried than usual? Things to be anxious about?

Hopefully that is all it s......?
Keep us updated!!

 

[zombiesarepeaceful]

I saw this on google...

"In some cases, prevention of atrial enlargement can be accomplished by treating the underlying cause, such as blood volume or pressure. In the case of excess blood volume, blood thinners are prescribed which can stop the atrial enlargement while in the case of high blood pressure/hypertension weight loss, exercise, and blood pressure medication can help."

T increases blood volume. If you dont' know, T is the hormone therapy I'm on as part of my transition. It could be caused by this, my body getting used to it. Or I may need my dose changed. Or taking aspirin or a blod thinner might be all I need. I'm gonna try to find some aspirin and if that helps, I'll be so relieved. My gf is worried too. I didn't want to tell her but figured I should or she'd wonder why I'm a wreck.

I've been more anxious than usual, yeah. But the fact that a part of my heart is enlarged is what really scared me into thinking it's more than that.

 

[rant*N*rave]

I'd start by exercising more and taking fish oil. But DO NOT begin taking any drugs, even over-the-counter drugs, without consulting a doctor - don't even start taking fish oil without asking a doc (it can act as a blood thinner). Having an enlarged atrium is significantly different from having an enlarged heart, and it could be related to the tachycardia. This is certainly something you should discuss with an MD.