They either make me really annoyed and aggravated like someone could be doing the littlest thing and it makes me so mad, driving I get so impatient especially!! But lately I've been finding myself be really talkative and nice and like trying to reach out to old friends and apologize for shit I've done in the past lmao but lately this is really weird but when I'm on opiates i get really goofy like sing and get resllt hyper
Not to scare you, that is if you care, but judging solely off the way your statement is worded I would say you're beginning to build an opiate addiction...
Listen, I've been on both sides of the wall, so, I know the feels and I'm not going to convince you to seek help; all I ask is that you ponder on a very simple question:
"Do I have an addictive personality?" (Examples: Do I get addicted to games easily? Do I get addicted (binge watch) shows easily? Do I form habits very easily? Do I have trouble breaking away from habits, good or bad? Do I get attached to certain places, people, things often?)
If the answer to that question or any of those examples is a "Yes" I will tell you, man-to-man, addict-to-addict; you need to stop using opiates NOW, it will eventually ruin every single aspect of your life. Soon enough you'll be using opiates just to talk to people and do common things you did, no problem, beforehand. Here's a personal relation, before I recovered from my opiate addiction my reliance on opiates was so strong that it had gotten to the point that
I would not talk to ANYONE if I was not high then, when I finally began to get clean&sober, I struggled for a couple years to regain my ability to communicate and my confidence while speaking with people... This is just a small example, I had much more terrible things occur to me and I did many horrible things to other people, friends&family alike.
BUT!! If for some reason you answered "No" to the above question(s), enjoy the opiates recreationally, do em maybe 2-3 times a month on the weekend and never do em multiple days in a row; even if you are not predisposed to addictive tendencies using opiates 2-3 days in a row will build a tolerance rapidly... At the end of the day long as you dont begin to rely on the opiate euphoria to get through your normal, every-day routine, you'll be golden Pony Boy.