Now it's about two years later. I started the blog entries one some of the worst days of my life. I changed alot. I don't take much in the way of pharmaceuticals anymore. Just 450 mg lithium once a day. I even stopped blood pressure meds. I looked back at the progression of meds I took and see now how I mistook myself for depressed.
It was because of the blood pressure meds. After I started on them - I started feeling lethargic and lost some ability to keep it up. Then my blood pressure was still high so they put me on two. It took me five years to take another close look at the blood pressure meds and to realize that they were the only drug left which could be a culprit in my lack of self confidence. So I told my doc I was stopping and a year later my blood pressure checked out good 125 80. During that time the lethargy stopped within a week of stopping the bp meds, and my sexuality picked up a good bit.
Each mind drug I took, even some body drugs had bad effects on me and compiled a list of side effects which weren't me, and which pushed me to even desperation at times. It's impossible to fight off a suspicion about a drug effect from inside it sometimes. Here's the list:
(not all at same time)
Celexa
Wellbutrin
Mirtazapine
Xanax
Valium
Meprobamate
Lithium
I was on blood pressure meds and my pdoc was giving me wellbutrin and I was also getting anxiety. I told my pdoc about the feelings of sexual malaise you see, so he gave me welllbutrin which was marketed as alieving that side effect. Instead I developed anxiety and shit started to spiral
I am going to stop seeing even the pdoc soon. It was a five years of mistaken diagnosis's.
It was because of the blood pressure meds. After I started on them - I started feeling lethargic and lost some ability to keep it up. Then my blood pressure was still high so they put me on two. It took me five years to take another close look at the blood pressure meds and to realize that they were the only drug left which could be a culprit in my lack of self confidence. So I told my doc I was stopping and a year later my blood pressure checked out good 125 80. During that time the lethargy stopped within a week of stopping the bp meds, and my sexuality picked up a good bit.
Each mind drug I took, even some body drugs had bad effects on me and compiled a list of side effects which weren't me, and which pushed me to even desperation at times. It's impossible to fight off a suspicion about a drug effect from inside it sometimes. Here's the list:
(not all at same time)
Celexa
Wellbutrin
Mirtazapine
Xanax
Valium
Meprobamate
Lithium
I was on blood pressure meds and my pdoc was giving me wellbutrin and I was also getting anxiety. I told my pdoc about the feelings of sexual malaise you see, so he gave me welllbutrin which was marketed as alieving that side effect. Instead I developed anxiety and shit started to spiral
I am going to stop seeing even the pdoc soon. It was a five years of mistaken diagnosis's.
