I finally saw you after so long....

[*Jamison*]

In the mall.
Your tie-dyed shirt gave you away.
I was walking along the other side of the long hall.
And I saw you.
Actually, I saw your girl first,
Walking along with your little Haylie.
I knew you were near.
I stopped.
Hesitated.
'Should I even say a word?'
'Should I just walk by?'
This is my chance for closure,
And ending to it all.
"Just keep walking,"
My heart told me.
I turned around,
Walked towards you.
Your girl noticed me,
Got your attention.
You turned around,
Blank, almost sad look on your face.
Your eyebrows raised in immediate recognition.
You didn't take a step forward,
So I did.
You finally walked away a couple feet
So we could talk slightly in privacy.
I could feel the heat from your body.
Last time we were that close,
I was in your arms,
You were holding me,
Kissing me softly,
Telling me how special and perfect I was.
Now,
Nothing.
I take a long look at you.
It feels like so long.
Perfect.
Not a thing out of place.
Well, your hair is dissheveled,
Goatee's a little longer,
Roots are showing from the dye job,
Jeans are looking kinda dirty and frayed.
But still.
Perfect.
In every way.
We make small talk,
Asking about jobs and such.
Our eyes locked.
You finally tell me,
"She wouldn't let me see Haylie unless I got back with her."
Now, I've heard that line many times before,
But I also knew the girl.
Mean,
Bitchy,
Evil.
The kind that would do anything to keep a man.
Your voice lowered...
"I'm so sorry,"
You whispered.
Your soft, beautiful brown eyes glimmered with tears.
I showed a brief, tight smile.
No tears for me now.
I couldn't let you see me break.
I told you I had to go,
Work and such.
We said our goodbyes,
Turned,
And walked on.
As I got further down the hall, almost home,
I turned,
Saw your old tie-dyed shirt once more,
And I felt my heart squeeze.
As I got out to my car,
My pace got slower,
My knees got weaker,
And I finally cried.
I felt each individual piece of my heart
Crumble,
Collapse,
Disintegrate,
Fall apart.
That was the longest car ride home in my life.
~Jamie

 

[badboybrian]

{{{jamie}}}

 

[E-girl]

Last time we were that close,
I was in your arms,
You were holding me,
Kissing me softly,
Telling me how special and perfect I was.
Now,
Nothing.
let that tell you something.
i spent too many of my days chasing the past... when the present was glaringly apparent. the present said "there's nothing left of us", but the past always seemed within my reach. i felt that if i chased after it long enough, i could have it back. and it never happened. and with each day that i kept denying the obvious, it got a little harder to let go. i found myself making excuses for him, and promising myself and everyone else that he would come back.
its 10 months later, and no, he hasn't come back. 10 months was an eternity. the only thing that made the hope finally start to fade, was another guy, gradually beginning to fill the void where he was. it shouldnt have to be that way. i've chatted with you, i know what a sweet, wonderful girl you are. you have the potential to win the heart of one lucky guy, who will treat you good... and who WONT leave you hanging, no explanation. why should you have to settle for this one?? you already gave him the benefit of the doubt, when he left for a week and never bothered to call... you have your answers now. what more do you need? let him go. his excuse for what he did is a poor one. he has the right to be happy, not to be tied down to someone he doesnt love forever... but i think he will always go back to her. and that's not fair to you.
dont be afraid to be alone. dont think of it as alone, think of it as "independent" or "free." the right person for you will come along, i promise you. maybe not today or tomorrow, but he WILL come. but give your heart a rest... dont dwell on what "could" have been with this jerk... cuz you might find yourself waiting months for ANYONE to come along and fill in the void. and trust me, it sucks.
cry your last tears for him, and move on.
*hug*