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I don't think Im addicted to benzos

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DopeAllah

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I'm a recovering heroin addict, and always used benzos to fall back on when I got sick from w/d, I did this for at least two years I was on suboxone for about 9 months daily, and during this time got a prescription for 2mg klonopin daily. I took this dose or more on and off for at least two months, and then slowly started tapering. I started tapering after reading all these horror stories. and brought my dose down to 1.5mg a day for the next 7 months.

Randomly I got fed up with being numb to the world. And just stopped taking them alltogether, it has been 12 days, and I do not feel one symptom of w/d. I have never had a mental addiction to these pills (like I have with H or coke) and never thought about them. I used them to help my constant thoughts about heroin, and the act of taking something.

I am planning on being sober up till day 14 at least before I try. But am I safe to PRN these as needed for my opiate w/d or could that screw me up. I mean I've heard of w/d not kicking in for weeks, but not feeling one symptom in 12 days, must mean im not physically dependent, right?
 
And the only reason I was tapering, was because I was scared into it my horror stories, I feel like I could of always have quit. I dunno, maybe it's just that I', used to withdrawing from heroin so much, that a low dose discontinuation has not harmed me. Also use to drink all through middle-high school-college, BINGE fucking drink. This was right before heroin. I never got addicted to alcohol, even though I displayed all the warning signs of alcoholism (blackouts, not stopping, chugging tequila from a handle), and grew out of it into opiates. I know I'm and always will be an addict, but could it be I'm not prone to GABA type addicitons?

Just dont want to fuck up my week long soujourn from pills (if there is anything to fuck up), but need them for my hopefully final opiate withdrawal.

And I know, go to detox, get help. Fuck that I work 7 days and I will and have worked in acute w/d
 
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if you've been taking them every day for the last 7 months, even at 1.5mg, i'd think you'd feel some sort of withdrawal. It also depends on your state of mind though, if you're not a very anxious/crazy person in the first place you may not notice it. If you're extra motivated (by not wanting to be numb) then you'll experience less of a psychological withdrawal for sure. Just be thankful that you made it 12 days without them and are fine, but don't fuck around with them in the future, eventually they get everyone. I didn't have problems until i abused them and now i get withdrawals really easily from benzos.

you don't need to go to detox, i never have but just be careful, benzo withdrawal is horrible.
 
I think it might have helped that I have no pre existing conditions to warrant benzo use. Never had anxiety, depression, trauma etc until after years of opiates.
I think as a heroin addict I'm in the minority IMHO
 
Sorry to rain on your parade man but as like me you are a recovering heroin addict, using any kind of Benzo is gonna be a difficult journey. Good luck.
 
I only have a problem with heroin. I do all substances in excess, but the only thing l crave or can't say note to are opiates. I think there is wide variability here amongst individuals. Some people may get addicted to every drug, others just one. That's why l don't go to NA. The only drug l get crazy with are opiates, l know a lot of people wouldn't agree with this but idk. You just have to be aware of what you have problems with l guess...
 
You would think I would feel SOMETHING after 12 days, all I felt was mild ringing in the ears (tinitus sp?)
 
yeah i'd think you'd feel something but really if you are not an anxious person anyway, it probably won't even bother you. In the future though you may find yourself craving them, addicted and dependent to benzos, so just stay away from them or use them as needed. Benzos didn't get me the first few times around but eventually they did. It's incredibly easy to switch from opiates to benzos. I think that's the main point other posters are making, not something to play around with. As for what happened, who knows but don't think you are the one special case that will never get withdrawals, it will happen eventually and if not, there's no point to playing with benzos anyway.
 
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