psyckokilla
Bluelighter
My recovery and extraction from my old life and friends is fucking killing me....ill end up relapsed dead before im better...i dont know what to do...should i run for my life..i mean it..should i run..
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i dont think ill make it...
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Like, literally run as in pack up and move somewhere else?? It certainly is a reasonable option, and I imagine that a lot of recovering addicts have to make the move to a new town in order to get away from their old addict life/friends/lifestyle/reminders etc. If it's something that you think is a) a good idea and b) feasible, then I reckon it's something you should consider.
What recovery support are you receiving at the moment? Are you seeing a drug counsellor/therapist? Have you got any new non-drug friends or activities e.g. exercise or other hobbies, to keep you occupied?
Please rest assured that you WILL get through this. The early recovery stage of addiction is always hard and is commonly met with challenges like this, so you're not alone. You are going to be okay
What recovery support are you receiving at the moment? Are you seeing a drug counsellor/therapist? Have you got any new non-drug friends or activities e.g. exercise or other hobbies, to keep you occupied?
Please rest assured that you WILL get through this. The early recovery stage of addiction is always hard and is commonly met with challenges like this, so you're not alone. You are going to be okay
psyckokilla
Bluelighter
i see a therapist every week and a psych like every month....my therapist tells me to go..she doesnt think its a good life choice to stay but i have a house and a bf and cats and this life i built...but its killing me..im sitting here drinking taking klonopin after klonopin to make it all go away..no i wont die i know my limit...but this cant happen...and it wont stop
How long have you been clean from your drug of addiction?
Are you doing any activities during the day to get out of the house and distract yourself from mental cravings?
Would your bf consider moving with you, if that's what it came to?
I know you feel trapped right now but there is always a way out and a better option
Are you doing any activities during the day to get out of the house and distract yourself from mental cravings?
Would your bf consider moving with you, if that's what it came to?
I know you feel trapped right now but there is always a way out and a better option
psyckokilla
Bluelighter
he will not move with me and almost willing to much for me to go....and im still border line using...the biggest part of it all is losing all the friends i called family to this because they dont wanna change and trigger me and drag me down to their drama filled levels of psychoticness i cant handle anymore im beyond my last nerve
I know it's hard hun, because you love your friends. But if you need to be clean from drugs, whether it's by personal choice or for health or financial reasons, or a combination of reasons, if you have made that decision you need to do whatever you can to uphold the promises you've made to yourself to be sober. If that means that you can't see your old friends for a while, until you're confidently sober, then that's what it's going to take. You are doing this for YOU. I know it's hard and sometimes you feel weak and that you can't do it (I know from personal experience), but really, there is a strong person inside of you waiting to take control. You need to trust yourself and trust that you are doing the right thing for you
If you stay in your current living situation, are there any other ways you can distract yourself from all the triggers around you? Do you work or study? Do you do any exercise?
If you stay in your current living situation, are there any other ways you can distract yourself from all the triggers around you? Do you work or study? Do you do any exercise?
Rolling Sly
Bluelighter
^ For you to talk so ridiculously laxed over suicide is fucking terrible man. You think its just some thing to do when it all seems to much, and murder is just some walk in the park?
You make me so angry that you can come into this thread when somebody clearly needs all the good vibes and good advice and just throw around such absurd statements. Gah ignore this idiot OP please.
To OP, best of luck. I have not had the tough times to the degree of many people on this board but my dark days are always passed. It just takes time for your chemistry to settle down and remember it can be just real life problems amplified. Think of the good things and remember you can always just keep rolling through life, no matter the speed bumps. All the best.
You make me so angry that you can come into this thread when somebody clearly needs all the good vibes and good advice and just throw around such absurd statements. Gah ignore this idiot OP please.
To OP, best of luck. I have not had the tough times to the degree of many people on this board but my dark days are always passed. It just takes time for your chemistry to settle down and remember it can be just real life problems amplified. Think of the good things and remember you can always just keep rolling through life, no matter the speed bumps. All the best.
Kyles
Greenlighter
Hey hey hey.... Everyone feels trapped with no where to turn every now and then..... there's no need to be so harsh man
herbavore
Bluelight Crew
I can really understand how trapped you feel. A big change like that would be terrifying under any circumstances--leaving a relationship, your pets and your whole social network is huge. Still, it does sound like that might be what you need to do to get clean and that should be your first priority. I wonder what kind of support you would have if you leave, though? Would you go to family (and are they supportive)? You sound very strong but understandably very stressed. Sometimes the decision is the hardest part.
There's a lot of support onTDS so keep coming here no matter where you go! Sending positive thoughts
There's a lot of support onTDS so keep coming here no matter where you go! Sending positive thoughts
cj
Bluelight Crew
I think its good that you realize how serious the decisions you are about to make are alot of people when they first get into recovery just say fuck there using friends change phone number apartments just drop off the face of the earth. Then they get a little clean time and realize that was pretty rash but by then its to late those great realationships are gone. That said you gotta do what you gotta do for you but remember that sometimes its not what you do but how you do it.