I don't know why I'm here.

I don't mean it in a philosophical way. I mean, I don't know why I joined Bluelight. I've never had a drink, or touched a drug, don't smoke. I don't know what it is that attracted me here and brings me back day after day. It's a curiosity of sorts, I imagine. "So THIS is how the other half lives?!"

As clean cut as I am-no criminal record, not even a ticket, hell, not even detention-it always surprises people in real life when they ask me my views on many things. I'm for the decriminalization of all drugs and prostitution, as well as the lowering of the drinking age to 18. This is based on the simple premise that consenting, mentally competent adults should be able to do with themselves as they wish as long as no third parties are harmed.

I'm very non-judgmental, and have all kinds of friends in real life that attest to this. I see posts on here by people from all walks of life, and I glean as much insight as I can from their experiences. Having grown up extremely sheltered, I learn a lot about what life is really like.

As someone who's very much analytical, amongst other things, I try to give back the "life experience" I vicariously gain by offering levelheaded advice, albeit almost exclusively in the SLR forum. Granted, I have absolutely no relationship experience-not even holding hands-but I've learned a lot through people around me in real life. I've read many psychology articles and I people watch. That, coupled with my intelligence, high interpersonal skills, problem solving skills, common sense, and the psychology and sociology classes I took in college allow me to help others.

I love that most the people I've encountered on this site are very open minded and helpful as well. I appreciate the help I've received, and will receive in the future to help me eventually get into a relationship. At the very least, I'll be able to offer advice based on personal experience, which is always better. Although my dissection of human behavior is nice, it's an incomplete spectrum.

Meanwhile, I shall continue to analyze everyone else's experiences to death in order to better plan what to do and what to avoid. My entrance into the relationship realm will be executed perfectly. But for now, I'll continue to offer advice from a pragmatic state of mind.

 

Cool post! I can relate to you in some areas, specially the relationship part.

 

I'm sure you're finding a lot of examples of what not to do, from the drugs you should never try to the kinds of partners you should never be with. I wish bluelight's SLR section had been around before I got into my first relationships. I've never really had a drug problem (but I enjoy certain ones), but I've had the most horrific, dysfunctional relationships, and a couple of them nearly killed me.

My entrance into the relationship realm will be executed perfectly.

Famous last words?

 

Per the "other half," there is not a person alive who does not seek to escape and/or enrich their lives whether it be by psychoactives or by some other thing in which they concentrate a good part of their energy and time. It can be bungee jumping, sex, even shopping. The same release of endogenous compounds (not neccessarily THE same compounds mind you) and the same pleasure/reward dynamic in the brain is effected. Moreover, with the exception of so called "Eskimos" there isn't a culture on the planet that does not indulge in psychoactives indigenously- meaning in and of their own accord and having organically developed the practice. The "Eskimos" were inhibited environmentally, usually living in regions where flora hadn't developed the co-operative element that allowed papver and cannabis to develop their people friendly alkaloids. Today the "Eskimos" are just as much involved in usage, though sadly alcohol is their most used psychoactive.

I share your Libretarian philosophy with one rider: "as long as it does not directly harm another human being." If a woman wants to sell herself sexually or a terminally ill patient wants to off themself I haven't a problem at all, as long as both are mentally competent (as you also stated).

 

Great post, love your honesty and can relate to most of what you're saying...

 

I've have seen your posts in SLR a few times and never would have guessed that you never did any of those things but then again I don't think it's abnormal. Bluelight has people from all walks of life and it's an awesome forum to socialize with people... you learn all sort of things because it is so well rounded compared to a lot of other places on the internet.

 

Thanks, Dre1990! Glad you could relate to something I wrote.

Socko, yes, I'm learning a lot about what to avoid. That excerpt you quoted might be my famous last words, indeed lol!

Rachamim, I agree. People "get their kicks" in different ways. I learned something about Eskimos today! I didn't know that, thanks for sharing.

Pale rider, thanks! Glad you appreciate my honesty, some people don't lol.

Stayfaded, I agree. So many types of people and things to learn on here!

 

Sounds like you're a wuss, fascinated by drugs and relationships but not brave enough to experience either.

 

My logic for not doing drugs is that as crazy as I am sober, it would only be exacerbated with drug use lol. It's not readily apparent online, but those fortunate enough to know me in person know the extent of my "craziness." The other reason is control. I highly value being in control of myself at all times, and refuse to abdicate control.

As far as relationships go, my avoidance of them is also my choice. I'm extremely independent, and want nothing to do with having to be accountable to anyone as far as what I do, who I'm with, etc. When I was younger, school was my focus. Now, work is my focus.

I do apologize for not seeing your comment sooner

 

I've met many people on bl who are clean; I was also puzzled why they would join. To be fair, it's a very expansive forum, with a strong recovery community. Also, I tend to find people on bl as a whole are quite open-minded, introspective, and intelligent, as well as most drug users in general. (There are exceptions, of course...). If I wasn't into drugs, I imagine I'd still check out the site. Very interesting post, btw.

 

Thanks! As I said before, I like interacting with all kinds of people. I agree that there's all kinds of intelligent, open-minded peeps here. It's why I keep coming back