I've missed this site so much. I miss everyone on here, but I needed to take some time for myself and my life.
My husband and I have gotten back together. But I don't know how it's going to work out. We have so much animosity towards each other. I'm the one who fucked-up last summer, while he was in another country, fighting for us. I deleted all my blogs from then, I was so out of my mind, I can't deal with that. Most of the time I wonder how he can deal with that.
At the beginning of the year, I moved in with my mother. My mom took out some of her retirement money to pay for my legal fees for the divorce. I got a wonderful lawyer, and several months later, was awarded sole custody of our children, and alimony and child support.
Before my husband was due to pay all of this (he also was ordered to pay legal fees and moving fees) he told me that he wanted to get back together.
My mother, who was paying everything for me at the time, was against the idea. But I did it anyways. I loved him so much, my illness (bipolar) was what caused our seperation, not me as a person. So I did it. I had my father drive me down to South Carolina where my husband is working as a drill sergeant.
I'm not sure how this is going to work out.
We have so much distrust for each other.
I wish so much that it was like it was before he deployed to Iraq in October of 2008. It won't ever be like that now. I destroyed so much. But I can hope.
My mother just came to visit, and she took our kids to the beach for a few days. A nice little break for me. My husband has to work (drill sergeants work wayyyy too much for my taste) but I have a little time for quiet for myself. I don't know where this is going to go. I can only hope its up from here.
I love all of you. And I miss you, so much. I'll be on here more..
My husband and I have gotten back together. But I don't know how it's going to work out. We have so much animosity towards each other. I'm the one who fucked-up last summer, while he was in another country, fighting for us. I deleted all my blogs from then, I was so out of my mind, I can't deal with that. Most of the time I wonder how he can deal with that.
At the beginning of the year, I moved in with my mother. My mom took out some of her retirement money to pay for my legal fees for the divorce. I got a wonderful lawyer, and several months later, was awarded sole custody of our children, and alimony and child support.
Before my husband was due to pay all of this (he also was ordered to pay legal fees and moving fees) he told me that he wanted to get back together.
My mother, who was paying everything for me at the time, was against the idea. But I did it anyways. I loved him so much, my illness (bipolar) was what caused our seperation, not me as a person. So I did it. I had my father drive me down to South Carolina where my husband is working as a drill sergeant.
I'm not sure how this is going to work out.
We have so much distrust for each other.
I wish so much that it was like it was before he deployed to Iraq in October of 2008. It won't ever be like that now. I destroyed so much. But I can hope.
My mother just came to visit, and she took our kids to the beach for a few days. A nice little break for me. My husband has to work (drill sergeants work wayyyy too much for my taste) but I have a little time for quiet for myself. I don't know where this is going to go. I can only hope its up from here.
I love all of you. And I miss you, so much. I'll be on here more..
