satori18
Bluelighter
i didn't ask for this.the memory of the act fills me with repulsion...
yet i chose to share, when i know, the trust, that i need to feel comfortable, is not there.
i know in me there lies no fault. but i am the one being punished.
forever s a foreighn word in an 18 year old's body and mind.
i run, to hide, no matter, the truth lies in a place to plain to not see.
forever. violated. secret.shame.fault.
forget never enters my mind, when it is forced there by my concious being it is almost humorous, i smirk at the impossibility.
dealing. learning, wishing, contemplating, yearning.
vocabulary, menaingless, not because it isn't describable, simply because, the part of me who cared to illustrate my feelings previously, has simply dissapeared/
yet i chose to share, when i know, the trust, that i need to feel comfortable, is not there.
i know in me there lies no fault. but i am the one being punished.
forever s a foreighn word in an 18 year old's body and mind.
i run, to hide, no matter, the truth lies in a place to plain to not see.
forever. violated. secret.shame.fault.
forget never enters my mind, when it is forced there by my concious being it is almost humorous, i smirk at the impossibility.
dealing. learning, wishing, contemplating, yearning.
vocabulary, menaingless, not because it isn't describable, simply because, the part of me who cared to illustrate my feelings previously, has simply dissapeared/
