I cried

[Jay_Arel]

I came home and cried today
The first time I've cried in quite awhile
You know how I am
I try my best to hide my tears
I cried because I saw you
The first time in almost a week
But I only saw the back of your head
A familiar sight from all the times you've walked away
I promised my friend i would come back
To talk to him about the show
I didn't expect you to be there
I walked up to the table
"What's up dude?"
"Hey, here he is"
I didn't look at you once
I couldn't -
Couldn't look at the girl that stole my heart
And then broke it
I'm sorry I didn't say hi
Again, I couldn't
Because I can't decide if I love you more than can be explained
Or if I hate you.
WHY?!!!!!
Why did you do all the shit you did?
For what reason?
Why did you have to lie?
Why didn't you give us a chance?
Why did you throw it all away?
WHY?!!!!!
I can't think
I can't speak
I can't even breathe without you
Nor do I want to
But I have no choice
You gave no other option
I've lost my best friend
I've lost the only girl I ever seriously
thought i could spend the rest of my life with
I've lost all hope
I've lost myself
All because you lost us

You gave me the 2 greatest gifts in my life
My guitar.......And moreso you -
I'll have the guitar until the day I die-
My reminder
But why did you take away the other?
The one that meant the most to me?
All i want to know is why you did all this...........
Guess I'll never know.

 

[Martyr's Wife]

this is very good it has so much emotion...i'm sorry she broke your heart....i know how it feels...

 

[cherub]

Things can be so simple but so meaningful when they come to from the heart. This seems to be one of those. Great write and thanks for sharing.

~Hugs~

 

[Jay_Arel]

Thank you both......when I first wrote this I was kind of torn between 2 emotions....I wasn't sure how to react to all the things she had done.....Then I learned more of her lies, and i'm still continuing to....and I just don't care anymore....That part of me has died.....Yet I did love her....or something I thought was her that turned out fake.....regardless.....thank you both again for your words.....you'll be hearing more from me soon i'm sure.

 

[FixXxer]

man... i feel most of this poem from previous experiences. all i can tell you.... is that TRUE love doesnt hurt.

that was told to me by my mother, it helped me thru alot of things.

 

[drEaMtiMe*@#]

Originally posted by Jay_Arel
I came home and cried today
The first time I've cried in quite awhile
You know how I am
I try my best to hide my tears
I cried because I saw you
The first time in almost a week
But I only saw the back of your head
A familiar sight from all the times you've walked away
I promised my friend i would come back
To talk to him about the show
I didn't expect you to be there
I walked up to the table
"What's up dude?"
"Hey, here he is"
I didn't look at you once
I couldn't -
Couldn't look at the girl that stole my heart
And then broke it
I'm sorry I didn't say hi

i like this first part especially....

as cherub said thank you for sharing.

 

[E-girl]

havent we all grown up? its time to move past all this... you shouldnt have to work so hard at love... true love..... this seems more like chasing yesterday's dreams....

and yesterday's gone.