Mental Health i cant do this anymore

[w0w0mg]

since my horrible relapse i just want to die

i dont want to live anymore

i cant do this anymore

no matter how hard i try to stay clean - I relapse.

I just want to do a hot shot and get everything done and over with.

 

[cj]

Have you tried methadone? I felt the same way as you 8 months ago. Methadone has totally changed my outlook. Funny part is the clinic gives me more narcotics than I was getting from my dealer. But I totally know where your coming from. My best advice is just too breathe and realize bette days are ahead

 

[w0w0mg]

I was on methadone for almost 2 years.
It was hell on earth cold turkey from 90mg.

I just want to be clean and I cant - nothing seems to work for me.
I always relapse.

When I was on MMT going to the clinic every morning was hell on earth.

 

[cyberius]

You can do it, just keep trying. Yes you may mess up over and over again but in due time you'll be strong enough to quit for good. Just be patient with yourself

 

[Opiatehell85]

Hey, I'm currently in opiate withdrawal and feeling the same, I'm on day three, I relapse all the time too but keep on trying, I'm doing well this time and determined to beat it.

i agree methadone is hell on earth, I too declined it and I don't blame you. But please don't feel like that, I'm sure there's people who love you and want you to be around, u can do this just keep trying, don't be so hard on yourself for relapsing, we all do it.

Thinking of you and keep going

 

[weekend addiction]

If it was easy to quit pretty much everyone would do it early on. Its a long road you basically have to re-train your brain.