soulfly
Bluelight Crew
(written the morning of 3/18... after a night that i don't remember at all...but i was informed from friends about a large amount of K usage...and a little more usage during the writing of this. All explanations of my actions during this night were informed to me the next day...i honsetly do not remember)
It's just like how a baby cannot concieve the idea of non-existence, before the first synapses fired. I believe i have experienced death. Not physical death, for my body's routine activities continued it's basic functions (breathing, walking, babbling meaningless, nonsensical words)
My inability to speak coherently, or walk without falling over was because my body's co-pilot (my spirit) died, well at least untill the drug ran it's course.
The body can continue living after the spirit is gone, as can the mind. The brain is simply a controller. The brain simply relays information that it hears, but the spirit is what comprehends.
Ketamine does not seperate the mind from the body, it seperates the spirit from the mind.
I believe that Ketamine (and certain other anestethic drugs) kill the spirit temporarily.
The spirit then dies, and becomes whatever that person truly believes in regards to life after death. Not necessarily what they were taught, but what they truly believe, conciously or subconciously, the theory that everyone has their very own personal afterlife, designed around their true beliefs.
Whether it be heaven, hell, or spending eternity on the Planet Jupiter, if you TRULY believe it, your spirit goes there.
I do not remember anything at all of last night. I did not know who I was or what I was doing. I was not even aware of my own existence. Those hours of my memory are completely blank. Mind anf body still alive, but the part that cound understand anything at all, was gone. I could not even attempt to understand anything. No thoughts, no visuals....just 100% pure nothingness, and no memory of it. I believe that other than physically, I ceased to exist for a while. I was just a shell, and my spirit went to it's true final resting place....nothingness.
It's just like how a baby cannot concieve the idea of non-existence, before the first synapses fired. I believe i have experienced death. Not physical death, for my body's routine activities continued it's basic functions (breathing, walking, babbling meaningless, nonsensical words)
My inability to speak coherently, or walk without falling over was because my body's co-pilot (my spirit) died, well at least untill the drug ran it's course.
The body can continue living after the spirit is gone, as can the mind. The brain is simply a controller. The brain simply relays information that it hears, but the spirit is what comprehends.
Ketamine does not seperate the mind from the body, it seperates the spirit from the mind.
I believe that Ketamine (and certain other anestethic drugs) kill the spirit temporarily.
The spirit then dies, and becomes whatever that person truly believes in regards to life after death. Not necessarily what they were taught, but what they truly believe, conciously or subconciously, the theory that everyone has their very own personal afterlife, designed around their true beliefs.
Whether it be heaven, hell, or spending eternity on the Planet Jupiter, if you TRULY believe it, your spirit goes there.
I do not remember anything at all of last night. I did not know who I was or what I was doing. I was not even aware of my own existence. Those hours of my memory are completely blank. Mind anf body still alive, but the part that cound understand anything at all, was gone. I could not even attempt to understand anything. No thoughts, no visuals....just 100% pure nothingness, and no memory of it. I believe that other than physically, I ceased to exist for a while. I was just a shell, and my spirit went to it's true final resting place....nothingness.