vurtomatic
Bluelight Crew
looks like all good things come to an end... as much as i dont want it to... as much as i thought u were the one i would spend my life with... as much as all the times we've declared our love and as much as u thought u were going to spend ur life with me... and as much as we thought we could surmount our prolbems and silly us thinking the distance was gonna be the biggest of them all... it looks like the biggest pitfall of them all was closer to home.
u've changed and hardened urself, not feel, simply because u cant take the pressure... perhaps u are not even ready for the relationship we had. nothing's easy, its time to grow up and take responsibility for urself, ur love and ur life.
are u your mum's daughter? or are u ur own person?
that is something i've had to live and deal with my whole life... and still dealing with, still at odds and fighting with.
i cant help it if u wanna let ur mum get to u... i cant help it if im not good enough in her eyes... i am my own person, just as i thought u were... but it seems u're not afterall. my parents brought me to this cruel world, but i answer to myself, just as my family has no bearings on the person i am, the mistakes i make or the little triumphs achieved... yes, i'd like to think that, however i am judged, i am judged by my person and my love for u.
i am not sorry ur mum doesnt think much of me.
i am not sorry for having a lineage i can't shout to the world about.
i am not sorry for the non-existent worldly possesions in my name.
i am sorry that what was once so unique and pure has to be tainted by such.
i am sorry that ur mum could not be more appreciative of what we have.
i am sorry that u cannot look past ur mum to see what we have.
i am sorry that u feel caught between the two of us when there never was.
i am sorry that what we have, was not worthy of a fight, was not worthy of defending.
i am sorry, and not.
and i am sure... once this moment passed, i will mourn u, i will mourn us... but i have long resigned to fate... as fate brought us together, all the signs... and fate decides to test us over and over again...
and u chose to surrender what was good.
u've changed and hardened urself, not feel, simply because u cant take the pressure... perhaps u are not even ready for the relationship we had. nothing's easy, its time to grow up and take responsibility for urself, ur love and ur life.
are u your mum's daughter? or are u ur own person?
that is something i've had to live and deal with my whole life... and still dealing with, still at odds and fighting with.
i cant help it if u wanna let ur mum get to u... i cant help it if im not good enough in her eyes... i am my own person, just as i thought u were... but it seems u're not afterall. my parents brought me to this cruel world, but i answer to myself, just as my family has no bearings on the person i am, the mistakes i make or the little triumphs achieved... yes, i'd like to think that, however i am judged, i am judged by my person and my love for u.
i am not sorry ur mum doesnt think much of me.
i am not sorry for having a lineage i can't shout to the world about.
i am not sorry for the non-existent worldly possesions in my name.
i am sorry that what was once so unique and pure has to be tainted by such.
i am sorry that ur mum could not be more appreciative of what we have.
i am sorry that u cannot look past ur mum to see what we have.
i am sorry that u feel caught between the two of us when there never was.
i am sorry that what we have, was not worthy of a fight, was not worthy of defending.
i am sorry, and not.
and i am sure... once this moment passed, i will mourn u, i will mourn us... but i have long resigned to fate... as fate brought us together, all the signs... and fate decides to test us over and over again...
and u chose to surrender what was good.
