Since my mum died a few years ago, I've been somewhat more religious and feel like I have spent too many years chasing my own tail. While I won't get into it a great deal, I'll just say that a lot of people wasted my time, like these ex support workers I had because of having ASD. They were scumbags. One of them even sent me emails mocking a dead wrestler, before he got fired or something. Trolls online bothered me for decades, and they all just took the piss. You can imagine it was a real drag.
It caused my anxiety to worsen. It got so bad, in fact, that I started walking everywhere and no longer using buses. Cannot eat in restaurants. Making eye contact is a chore. None of that I enjoy. I get a lot of adrenaline rushes and I don't work or have any savings, which means my money goes towards snack food and keeping myself entertained with Blu-rays. And I live in a mice infested flat to boot. Wanna move? Tough shit. The Edinburgh City Council won't shift anybody.
But a large component of why I feel fed up lately, is the bad attitude exhibited by sex workers online. Granted, a lot of them are incredibly snooty and cold. But 2024 was a draught for me. I just couldn't catch a break. And 2025 hasn't been any better.
I am basically on home curfew, due to a court sentence for some BS relating to one of the support workers. It's a long story, so I won't go into the ins and outs of it for fear of being judged. But I got arrested like three times with warrants as the court dates were for to attend a court in another town, but I kept making it clear my travel anxiety meant I couldn't go by myself. And as you probably know, cases often get deferred. Then I got arrested a month ago, because the pigs stopped me in the damn street and made out I breached my curfew because I couldn't get home in time after I got my release papers from a court in Livingston, outside of Edinburgh. So they accepted my 'not guilty' plea in court, after a weekend in the cop shop. But come on. Get away to fuck.
The main gist of this is that I fancied a support worker over a decade ago, and a large chain of interconnected events occurred because of me being deceived, but it went on for years. You wouldn't even believe how long it has dragged on for.
Anyway, I proposed a meet with an escort on adultwork.com. Despite her name being "Sweet Clementine", she is anything but that. I added her on WhatsApp. One of their normal practices is to arrange like a little interview to clear the air about whatever you're supposed to agree on. She asked for a picture of myself.
So essentially, people on HDC wear an ankle tag, so the security personnel know you're in your flat after 7 pm. I mentioned that. As it doesn't come off, I thought maybe I ought to be open and let her know, in case she seen it on my leg when I got undressed. I mean, if a lady came to me with one, I guess I wouldn't wanna be impolite and make out they're nuts, but you won't know her crime from Adam. But this slut called me a beast and got very nasty.
Now people can have a tag for any offence. But to say that was just really rude. However, many of these sex workers in general are quite narcissistic and difficult to penetrate, and this is all too common. And no, not to be crass, but I was talking about their mannerisms. Not their sex acts. A lot of them come across as having bipolar, ADHD or some anti-social disorder. Not how I vibe.
I feel like when I message them, I'm walking on egg shells. A lot of them are just not very nice. They clearly don't particularly like nor care for men. I'm not saying they're all horrible, but a lot of them are just not very approachable. Which is kind of sad, because I recall when certain ones started out as a nobody in the industry, selling fetish videos for a fee on bots infested platforms, when they were admittedly more normal, laid back, and less of an arrogant sounding cunt. Unlike how they are acting like today.
But money goes to their head. That's the thing. All they do is gloat about stuff on X. I see guys tipping them and buying them shit on Throne, and before that, Wishtender and Amazon. Why even bother if they have no mutual respect for you? They just berate men thereafter anyway. I know this is a weird fetish that guys are into, but they clearly yield zero respect for the strangers daft enough to 'simp' for a little bit of their attention. You just get completely mucked about with these idiots.
Plus, all of their profiles are sugar-coated like heck. "I do the ultimate this, this and this!" Only when you message them, they are acting all offended, confused, disinterested, or a combination of these things. And I'm not into findom. I only bring that up because that's how they openly behave.
I don't know. But am I a dope for being interested in escorts? Many of them just seem too pompous, evil, or whatever. Especially ones with a career in porn. They seem to think fucking pink roses grow wherever they set foot.
Sorry for the wee rant. But meh. Fuck me without actually fucking me. You know?
It caused my anxiety to worsen. It got so bad, in fact, that I started walking everywhere and no longer using buses. Cannot eat in restaurants. Making eye contact is a chore. None of that I enjoy. I get a lot of adrenaline rushes and I don't work or have any savings, which means my money goes towards snack food and keeping myself entertained with Blu-rays. And I live in a mice infested flat to boot. Wanna move? Tough shit. The Edinburgh City Council won't shift anybody.
But a large component of why I feel fed up lately, is the bad attitude exhibited by sex workers online. Granted, a lot of them are incredibly snooty and cold. But 2024 was a draught for me. I just couldn't catch a break. And 2025 hasn't been any better.
I am basically on home curfew, due to a court sentence for some BS relating to one of the support workers. It's a long story, so I won't go into the ins and outs of it for fear of being judged. But I got arrested like three times with warrants as the court dates were for to attend a court in another town, but I kept making it clear my travel anxiety meant I couldn't go by myself. And as you probably know, cases often get deferred. Then I got arrested a month ago, because the pigs stopped me in the damn street and made out I breached my curfew because I couldn't get home in time after I got my release papers from a court in Livingston, outside of Edinburgh. So they accepted my 'not guilty' plea in court, after a weekend in the cop shop. But come on. Get away to fuck.
The main gist of this is that I fancied a support worker over a decade ago, and a large chain of interconnected events occurred because of me being deceived, but it went on for years. You wouldn't even believe how long it has dragged on for.
Anyway, I proposed a meet with an escort on adultwork.com. Despite her name being "Sweet Clementine", she is anything but that. I added her on WhatsApp. One of their normal practices is to arrange like a little interview to clear the air about whatever you're supposed to agree on. She asked for a picture of myself.
So essentially, people on HDC wear an ankle tag, so the security personnel know you're in your flat after 7 pm. I mentioned that. As it doesn't come off, I thought maybe I ought to be open and let her know, in case she seen it on my leg when I got undressed. I mean, if a lady came to me with one, I guess I wouldn't wanna be impolite and make out they're nuts, but you won't know her crime from Adam. But this slut called me a beast and got very nasty.
Now people can have a tag for any offence. But to say that was just really rude. However, many of these sex workers in general are quite narcissistic and difficult to penetrate, and this is all too common. And no, not to be crass, but I was talking about their mannerisms. Not their sex acts. A lot of them come across as having bipolar, ADHD or some anti-social disorder. Not how I vibe.
I feel like when I message them, I'm walking on egg shells. A lot of them are just not very nice. They clearly don't particularly like nor care for men. I'm not saying they're all horrible, but a lot of them are just not very approachable. Which is kind of sad, because I recall when certain ones started out as a nobody in the industry, selling fetish videos for a fee on bots infested platforms, when they were admittedly more normal, laid back, and less of an arrogant sounding cunt. Unlike how they are acting like today.
But money goes to their head. That's the thing. All they do is gloat about stuff on X. I see guys tipping them and buying them shit on Throne, and before that, Wishtender and Amazon. Why even bother if they have no mutual respect for you? They just berate men thereafter anyway. I know this is a weird fetish that guys are into, but they clearly yield zero respect for the strangers daft enough to 'simp' for a little bit of their attention. You just get completely mucked about with these idiots.
Plus, all of their profiles are sugar-coated like heck. "I do the ultimate this, this and this!" Only when you message them, they are acting all offended, confused, disinterested, or a combination of these things. And I'm not into findom. I only bring that up because that's how they openly behave.
I don't know. But am I a dope for being interested in escorts? Many of them just seem too pompous, evil, or whatever. Especially ones with a career in porn. They seem to think fucking pink roses grow wherever they set foot.
Sorry for the wee rant. But meh. Fuck me without actually fucking me. You know?
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