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I am just so tired even breathing seems like work
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deltakappamu
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I am in recovery and I find that I am like, DEAD in the morning. When I was using, I used to get myself to wake up in the morning by having a morning shot of dope. Then I was taking Adderall (as prescribed) and I would use that as an incentive to get up. Now that I am in recovery I feel like I have been hit by a truck EVERY. FUCKING. MORNING.
Now I drink a few sugar free energy drinks (I know, I know.. but it's all I've got now,) and go work out at the gym. After that I seem to feel great.
Now I drink a few sugar free energy drinks (I know, I know.. but it's all I've got now,) and go work out at the gym. After that I seem to feel great.
I don't feel recovered then again i have never really stopped using some type of opiate! they say the % of people that really give it 3-6 months for your brain to rewire is super low! im still taking oxy and i still feel tired. its because i switched from suboxone 8mg 2x day and every action is well idk its hard to explain its as though someone hijacked all my motivation. and things that are important in my life i just dont even give a shit.
good luck with your recovery wanting ! i hope you can pull through
good luck with your recovery wanting ! i hope you can pull through
I am free for 10 days now. I was taking oxycodone and morphine gabapentin and Soma and xanax. The hardest thing that I find as I constantly feel like I can't sleep total of three meals in two weeks. However each day I feel little bit better. I'm taking clonodine for goosebumps and cold sweat. I'm also taking klonipin for the anxiety and the constant feeling of having to stretch.I'm also taking bentyl for stomach cramps. I was on all those medications for 7 years with the exception of xanax that was for 6 months. I was told it's probably going to take anywhere between two weeks and two months for my body to even out. But that can be helped by hot baths with baking soda or bath salts as well as working out it'll get the toxins out of your body quicker.I do have more energy now and I just want to say good luck and I hope you find a way and eventually your body will stabilize.
Im going to try and transition to using a cbd marijuana strain and slowly taper off opiates Im just tired of all the ups and downs ! tired of the pain no matter how many epidurals and pills i take! its not helping me ! if anything its taking part of my life away from me, Its like an evil force is draining all the good energy from my soul. Affecting my decisions in terrible ways. Convincing myself that somehow this time its going to be different and all these opiate medications are supposed to help me. Its truly insanity. This is what doctors are giving me to help me !? it seems like there has to be a better way ! CBD marijuana may help. IDK but i need to do something different than staying on the path i am on now! I know i have been down the opiate pain management rabbit hole that takes away who i really am! I want and need to be happy and healthy. I find myself giving advise on other peoples pain management situations, wile my own is truly in need of help. There comes a point in any opiate use where you just have to take more to obtain any real pain management. I have rode to the maximum of what my doctors will prescribe and back and forth more times then i can even remember! If you always need a higher and higher opiate dose in order to not feel pain, then how is this ever actually going to be a positive medicine for any type of long term use!? I am just willing to try anything that may have a different outcome then Narcotic dependency ! with the pain eventually adapting to the opiate meds no matter how much i take whats the point of doing this again !? I may as well let the pain adapt to a new situation. The human body is super resilient, adaptation is inevitable no matter what! I want my life back without a huge fog over my existence. I need this whatever this may be. There has to be a reason we have natural system of marijuana in our bodys. There is a reason the body keeps marijuana in the system for 30 days and expels opiates in 3 days. My body must like the marijuana and dislike the opiates its rather obvious really. Its even more insane that the medical world rejects my need and want to use a medicine that can help me! the allopathic world is literally on the wrong side of history here. Why is it ok to take high dose narcotics for my pain for such a long term treatment plane? OOO and nooo you can not use medical grade marijuana with my drugs and if you do i just will not give you my drugs anymore ! Well that's fine with me thanks a lot FDA your totally in this to help protect people not profit right??? Well again your on the wrong side of history FDA entity! Thanks again for all your help on protecting people and governing my food and drugs in such a responsible manner! I got to admit the oxycodone was a really awesome force in my life ! Here is the actual statement that this so called protecting force admits ! FDA is responsible for protecting the public health by assuring the safety, efficacy and security of human and veterinary drugs, biological products, medical devices, our nation’s food supply, cosmetics, and products that emit radiation.
FDA is also responsible for advancing the public health by helping to speed innovations that make medicines more effective, safer, and more affordable and by helping the public get the accurate, science-based information they need to use medicines and foods to maintain and improve their health. FDA also has responsibility for regulating the manufacturing, marketing and distribution of tobacco products to protect the public health and to reduce tobacco use by minors.
Finally, FDA plays a significant role in the Nation’s counter-terrorism capability. FDA fulfills this responsibility by ensuring the security of the food supply and by fostering development of medical products to respond to deliberate and naturally emerging public health threats.
Your doing a great job FDA thanks again and if at all possible maybe you can cut me in on the huge profits that you help keep in place. In all reality i need to take responsibility for what i put in my body! thats number one number two its probably way more complicated then i really understand. I do truly thank you for regulating this Immensely complicated and ungainsably capitalistic system that always has the peoples health as numero uno so kind of you. Man how stupid are we ? blindly believing a system that has $ and big business to tend with! We are what we eat and we evolve, adapt, and most of all bio-chemically react to our chemistry fueled world! If we are still around in ooo IDK thousands of year or even in geological time wise I think i know where i stand, live, breath, eat non-GMO foods, In what side of history are you on? Where and who's side of history will you be living and ultimately believing ??? Its beyond me how this all truly works ! but i know what i feel and i feel like im being poisoned by a dead president, pieces of paper and all the insanity capitalistic forces bring to this moment in time ! Ok rant over and im done !!!
FDA is also responsible for advancing the public health by helping to speed innovations that make medicines more effective, safer, and more affordable and by helping the public get the accurate, science-based information they need to use medicines and foods to maintain and improve their health. FDA also has responsibility for regulating the manufacturing, marketing and distribution of tobacco products to protect the public health and to reduce tobacco use by minors.
Finally, FDA plays a significant role in the Nation’s counter-terrorism capability. FDA fulfills this responsibility by ensuring the security of the food supply and by fostering development of medical products to respond to deliberate and naturally emerging public health threats.
Your doing a great job FDA thanks again and if at all possible maybe you can cut me in on the huge profits that you help keep in place. In all reality i need to take responsibility for what i put in my body! thats number one number two its probably way more complicated then i really understand. I do truly thank you for regulating this Immensely complicated and ungainsably capitalistic system that always has the peoples health as numero uno
so kind of you. Man how stupid are we ? blindly believing a system that has $ and big business to tend with! We are what we eat and we evolve, adapt, and most of all bio-chemically react to our chemistry fueled world! If we are still around in ooo IDK thousands of year or even in geological time wise I think i know where i stand, live, breath, eat non-GMO foods, In what side of history are you on? Where and who's side of history will you be living and ultimately believing ??? Its beyond me how this all truly works ! but i know what i feel and i feel like im being poisoned by a dead president, pieces of paper and all the insanity capitalistic forces bring to this moment in time ! Ok rant over and im done !!!Honestly, I would research how they handle this situation in CO, now that weed is legal there. See if there are any Drs that published whether its ok to smoke and take oxy. Im not sure, I know both effect the brain, but in conjunction with one another, IDK. I also agree about the FDA, one of the main reasons I quit. Finding the meds was getting harder and harder. Plus they keep reducing the allowable despenced amount per month. Good luck man.
Bob
Bob
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IM in same boat as you up $##$ creek.
I'm around 40 days of methadone and every morning same mac truck comes by my house and hits me too. It can seem debilitating cause its like a hang over and you just want to lay in bed. BUT this is bad idea cause u suffer worse if you do. I make myself get up no matter how weak I feel. Today went outside soon as I got upand jogged/walked (little of both still weak but) and then straight in shower. Shower always restores life. If u cant get out I feel u but go for the shower it washes the hang over feeling away. Luckily most afternoons I am better- but not all. Unfortunately the real helper will be time.
TIme heals all wounds. Dont quit 2 seconds before the miracle.
I'm around 40 days of methadone and every morning same mac truck comes by my house and hits me too. It can seem debilitating cause its like a hang over and you just want to lay in bed. BUT this is bad idea cause u suffer worse if you do. I make myself get up no matter how weak I feel. Today went outside soon as I got upand jogged/walked (little of both still weak but) and then straight in shower. Shower always restores life. If u cant get out I feel u but go for the shower it washes the hang over feeling away. Luckily most afternoons I am better- but not all. Unfortunately the real helper will be time.
TIme heals all wounds. Dont quit 2 seconds before the miracle.