i am fucked

[samwitch]

hey, samantha from south england. 49 yrs. 15 yr son living with me . am a cliché victim of abuse.. now ready to die... endocarditis plus 4 strokes . have nothing left to give...wanna die but don't wanna traumatize my son... so i fade...

 

[Cheshire_Kat]

Hey samwitch.

Can I suggest you look at Bluelight'sThe Dark Side sub forum? You'll find members who share thoughts together, no judgement or expectations.

Welcome to Bluelight, BTW.

 

[nuttynutskin]

Try to hang in there if not for yourself for your son...

 

[Deleted member 517527]

You can make it back to a Stable if not Happy Place!!
Your son very much wants you and needs you, as you Him.
Jump over to The Dark Side, I love the Help There
All is Well

 

[Mafioso]

Hey @samwitch , sorry to hear you are struggling right now. If you'd like to talk more about it, please feel free to make a post in The Dark Side as White Rose mentioned. That sounds like a difficult place for anyone to be in, so it's understandable you might be struggling and wanting to give up. Things don't have to stay like this forever though. We are here if you want to talk more.