Hey man, Good luck. I don't know if you've ever been to treatment before, but it's a bold step to make to step out of your life 100% to spend significant time there. You seem like you've got a pretty good head on your shoulders in being able to explain exactly your process, the effects it's having on your life, what's missing, what can go wrong, what you're expecting. You still have some good supports on your side too with your wife, and being able to hold work in whatever capacity you're working in whichever capacity they are there. Having these kinds of supports at all does improve peoples outcomes. I hope it goes well for you, and I know it can!
I don't know what form of treatment you're going in for. but
@neversickanymore made some allusions to 12 step program like AA and NA that might not be understandable if you don't know this route of action toward recovery. If you "work it" being a saying thay goes around all the rooms pretty much everywhere, they say you'll find your recovery in the rooms. Most programming does have a 12 step component, and a lot of it revolves almost entirely around your participation in these groups. Whatever sort of treatment you find yourself in, just remember that whatever your convictions are toward spirituality and God (steps 1,2,3 give up power, find God "as you understand him". accept God) the people who are there do mean well if helping you on your journey toward sobriety, and even more - a healthy recovery!
I've had my own experiences, and hold my own beliefs and values against 12 steps programming in ways that isn't conducive to relaying any message of hope or recovery to you here, so I won't get into my whole spiel which revolves more around the politics of it than any issue with God or what value there is in what's ultimately a pretty damn good peer support system. That's the thing you might want to make sure of the most, like in anything in life, is that you're in open communications with the people you're around. That's how you will get the most you can in participating in a recovery program. It's by actually participating! Networking is key. Make sure you leave there with some phone numbers and new friends regardless of what that programming is and spend some time creating a follow-up plan to keep growing steady on once you're finished.
Recovery related, or not. Your hobbies, and your where your mind goes with still hands? That
will define what happens to you here - in every degree of life you hold solely. There's a lot of things in this world you can do that don't cost a ton of money. People who are running any kind of social gathering (say a hiking group) are usually really happy to have newcomers, and a lot of the recovery programming makes its bread and butter on it, so you shouldn't find yourself too alone at any given point. You've got your home,and your wife who will be hoping against hope for you, I'm sure. If she's frustrated, you understand why right? Nobody wants you dead to some pills, especially your wife.
If you need any assistance from the outset here. You can contact me, or anyone here in the forums. There's plenty of us here who have been through this stage of life already, and a whole array of outcomes between us to advise on. Welcome to Bluelight.
