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- May 22, 2012
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On day 6 of being clean, feeling SO much better than the previous days, and even though there were days I felt really damn good while I was using, I feel so much better now that I'm off. Anyway, my question is embarrassing as hell, but F it, I've been through hell, this can't hurt.
A little background first: I was able to keep my addiction secret from everyone! My wife, son, parents, etc...everyone. I told both parents while withdrawing because I needed some support, and I needed to get it off my chest. I'm still WAY to ashamed to tell my wonderful wife. I know eventually she'd be understanding and supportive, but after two years of deception, lying, wasting money, etc...there's NO way she won't be absolutely pissed, and I don't want to deal with that while in recovery. Maybe one day the time will be right to confess, but now is not it. I'm still struggling and fighting the fight right now. Oh, and by the way, I took around an average of 60-70 mg, and the most I ever took in a day was 80-85 mg of Hydrocodone. This is the only drug I ever took...I refused to ever "climb the drug ladder" and never advanced to "harder" drugs, but the one I took did damage enough, and I'm so glad I'm done with it!
Anyway, back to my original question: Since I quit using, my sex-drive has come back with a vengeance! Great news right? Well, yeah...to a point. My desire has increased by 100x where it was, but the length of my duration has decreased by 100x lol. I mean, lol, premature ejaculation may not even cover it. I'd be happy to be a minute man right now lol. It's ridiculous how fast I orgasm right now. Please tell me this is just a temporary symptom of my W/D, and will pass soon.
Surely someone has experienced this too...
A little background first: I was able to keep my addiction secret from everyone! My wife, son, parents, etc...everyone. I told both parents while withdrawing because I needed some support, and I needed to get it off my chest. I'm still WAY to ashamed to tell my wonderful wife. I know eventually she'd be understanding and supportive, but after two years of deception, lying, wasting money, etc...there's NO way she won't be absolutely pissed, and I don't want to deal with that while in recovery. Maybe one day the time will be right to confess, but now is not it. I'm still struggling and fighting the fight right now. Oh, and by the way, I took around an average of 60-70 mg, and the most I ever took in a day was 80-85 mg of Hydrocodone. This is the only drug I ever took...I refused to ever "climb the drug ladder" and never advanced to "harder" drugs, but the one I took did damage enough, and I'm so glad I'm done with it!
Anyway, back to my original question: Since I quit using, my sex-drive has come back with a vengeance! Great news right? Well, yeah...to a point. My desire has increased by 100x where it was, but the length of my duration has decreased by 100x lol. I mean, lol, premature ejaculation may not even cover it. I'd be happy to be a minute man right now lol. It's ridiculous how fast I orgasm right now. Please tell me this is just a temporary symptom of my W/D, and will pass soon.
Surely someone has experienced this too...
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