hurt and diappointment

I sat in the freezing cold,fridgid cold hoping you'd at least confront me face to face to let me down in the least or be friends and have fun or at the best....what i wished. Nothing, no show, no phone call, nothing except a short 1-2 line email.
Thank you so much. I tell you I love you with all my heart and soul no matter where you are in life, no matter your job, no matter the drugs no matter if you even love me back, that I love you UNCONDITIONALLY and will for as long as i got the Taurus fight in me.

I miss the look of surrender in your eyes
The way your soft brown hair would feel
I miss the power of your kiss when we made love
But baby most of all

I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend

I miss the colors that you brought into my life
Your golden smile, those golden brown eyes
I miss your gentle voice in lonely times like now
Saying it'll be alright

I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend

I miss those times
I miss those nights
I even miss the silly fights
The making up
The morning talks
And those late afternoon walks

I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with

At least I know not to try again on Monday, since you don;t care anymore, in the least. I would stand out in the frigid cold ALL DAY if you asked of me, thats how much i care. but i get this in return. thanks.

Thanks, I thought at least you would be honarable and not let me freeze my ass off.

I guess I truely do mean fuck all. Thanks.

I still am foolishly in love with you and will be for a long time no matter what unconditionally.

I don't know if I want to cry from my foolishness or be angry....or just fuck it all and just nothing.

I am still ice cold after being home 20mins after spending 2hrs in the frigid cold.

I don't think I'll warm up anytime soon, why bother.

Thanks alot D, you really disappointed me. in so many ways.

I even got all girlyu dressed up for you, something Ive done for NO man.

not like you'll read this anyhow. but whatevs.


P.S. I LOVE YOU

"Wait For You"

[Verse 1]

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

why does heartbreak have to feel so literal? my chest hurts so bad, i cant even swallow or think past my ramblings.

fuck my meds, all they really do is knock me out, I dont want to sleep tonight.

Just gonna sit here and listen to music.


as foolish and childish as this sounds, ive dreamed us like the ending sequence of Twilight (the first one) where they dance and talk and kiss at the prom. Right now I could sit here for hours and just listen to your voice. I miss you so bad, its been only a month since ive seen or heard your voice but i miss u so fucking bad that im starting to get retarded again. I just miss you. I love you bru


Oh yeah Terry is dying of prostate cancer...so i just got double the fuck you tonight.

Believe in god they say.....believe in true love they say...... why dont i just velieve in santa while im at it.