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How you slowly cut drugs out or down? Your drug journey.

garygroundwork

garygroundwork

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I would like to hear about your drug journey and slowly cutting drugs down or some completely out of your life? Basically your life drug journey for some of the folk with lots of years. I am 49 now.
Maybe your drug use has got worse as you have gotten older. That is good too. Tell us.

For me, for example. I have used drugs for 35 years, never stopped everything totally at once in that time.

Alcohol was the first abused thing. I rarely drink now at all. and if i do (once a month maybe) its a few beers and I never get drunk. No hangover for years.

Benzos were good for me for 15 years I always had them in supply and never formed an addiction. But they helped me through tough times and with anxiety. They are the one drug and adhd meds that have been positive and beneficial in my life. But now I just can get them at all. So have not used for a few years. Would use if I could get them.

I have totally quit 2cb, ketamine forever. Will never touch again. Totally over it.

Cocaine was my worst addiction. Daily habit all day. I used medication with doctors guidance to beat addiction, Will never use buy again.

Ecstasy/molly my favorite all time drug. I recently used it when I went out and it ruined my night. Didn't want to be out didn't talk just wanted to go home and snuggle up and be alone. The magic has gone for me. So I would only I use now maybe with my 4 best friends or a girl at home once or twice a year. Will not be buying or seeking it out again.

GHB i might use a little when I have to go to social events but again not that interested anymore.

Meth the other drug I have had a problem with I went cold turkey and was clean for a few weeks. Then i relapsed but I have learnt to cut it down now and use only for a social vent or if I need to get something done.. maybe once a week

Oxys I don't enjoy they make me feel nauseas now... cut out

So after 35 years I have slowly completely cut a lot of drugs.

At this point I will only use a bit of meth here and there. maybe smoke a reefer once a week. I take adhd drugs daily prescribed. ecstasy once or twice a year on special occasions with close friends. So at 49 it is all slowly coming to an end for me which is good. I would take benzos as needed if i could get them. For me they aren't addicted but extremely helpful. I will also use mushrooms and small doses of acid with friends once or twice a year.

To stop this whole circus I have used meds to come off from addictions, and also noticed some drugs are not fun anymore and juts stopped. probably grown up a bit. Also started putting my energy and focus into the gym and taking a bit of testosterone to focus on that and provide structure and discipline.

I'm very grateful I have never tried heroin.

I would like to hear about your drug journey has evolved and what you cut out or cut down how and why you did it or maybe you have got worse. Tell us where you are at.
 
i got put in the psychward a bunch of times for disturbing the peace on and off drugs... i was drug tested a few times and they found drugs in my system, so i mostly just don't do illegal drugs now cause i get money and housing for being disabled and i don't want to do something stupid and loose it or be forced to take anti-psychotic meds.. if weed were still illegal, i'd probably still be using other drugs just cause i'd still be paranoid about the weed being illegal, so i'd rationalize that i might as well use other drugs... i mostly haven't used any other drugs other than weed and coffee since marijuana became legal a few years ago.

i stopped drinking alcohol over ten years ago now cause i got hit by a car and have some bad nerve damage. even small amounts of alcohol result in a shitty hang over after that, so it didn't make sense for me to drink... my back has healed a bit though and i get a lot less nerve damage symptoms, so i'm kind of wondering if i'll pick drinking back up when i move to smoke free housing... there are parts of drinking i don't really like. like i like weed more when i'm not drinking i'm pretty sure. i dunno what i'm gonna do..

shrooms are actually greatly decriminalized in some towns in my state. they are becoming legal more places, if they don't become decriminalized in my town before i get older, i'm gonna move some where i can take them with out having to worry about getting in trouble.... mostly weed is the only drug i really care about at this point in my life though.

i'd probably do a little bit of coke like once every season, maybe monthly if i weren't worried about stuff being cut... i wouldn't get any street drugs now cause of cutting... it's been that way with me for like 15 years now.. i used to get script stuff from friends i trusted or E cause everyone else is taking it... but as time went on, i dunno. i just don't really care to deal with it... mostly psychedelics and weed for me, and now just weed since that has been legal like i said.
 
I'm 27 now. 15 years of use though, maybe that qualifies me. I've been mortally afraid of withdrawals since well before I'd ever experienced them. Something about seeing Trainspotting too young. I also discovered sites like this and Erowid as a pre-teen, and became fascinated by all the trip reports. I wanted to try all the weird and wonderful substances and have all the beautiful experiences to share.

One day when I was 8, I found a tin of chewing tobacco on my front porch, left behind by one of my mom's friends after a kickback. I took it to school, literally chewed and swallowed it, and shared it with another kid (I'm sorry, Nick. I was not wise.) Problems only began to manifest when I started stealing weed from my mom to self medicate all the trauma and illness that isn't worth getting into. Took a few years to manifest into a dependence. I remember being 15 and thinking to myself "Yeah, this is probably an addiction". Wiser then, but the alternative didn't seem happier than addiction so nothing changed.

The first drug I had to cut out was benzos. I'd just figured out how to get RCs. 19 or 20 maybe. I believe the mix I got was Etizolam + a valium analogue + phenibut. I don't believe this was a safe mix to be taking, especially not when I started mixing in Clonazolam. It was like taking a bulldozer to every anxious thought and self doubt. Including the important ones that keep you from making poor decisions. I called it my anxiety heroin, because of how friendly it made the world feel (It was not friendlier, I was making a fool of myself. Just not bad enough to get arrested).

When I started getting rebound anxiety at work, I knew the monster had come out of the closet and was there to get me. I talked to my dad, got rid of the stuff, and white knuckled it through a few days of absolute terror. This was maybe a month and a half or two of continuous use, so very mild in the grand scale of what benzos can do to you. The vendor I was purchasing from exit scammed shortly thereafter, and I've steered clear since.

I'd also stolen from friends in my addiction. Always weed. Eventually they found out, and rightly cast me out. They were dear to me though, and when I lost my job shortly thereafter a summer of alcoholism followed since it was cheap enough to manage. One night after about 3 months which had escalated to a liter or more a day, I got real bad heart palpitations. They didn't stop after several hours. Panic got the better of me, went to the hospital, and rode it out. Other than the shakes I didn't get any substantial symptoms. Even managed to kick weed for a few days.

A few years later, my mom's health took a real turn. I flew in to the state to offer support for a month. It was the hardest month I've yet experienced. Had found another RC source, so I pull the trigger on a purchase to comfort me once I'm home. A-PHP, 5-MEO-PCP, 4-HO-MET was the first purchase. Still bought enough PCP for a few months. Mixing the tryptamine with PCP gave me one of the most memorable trips of my life, what little I remember of it. I do remember watching an abstract painting in my room shift between a variety of scenes, ending with a peaceful green forest. I also remember strange, curly golden threads forming a canopy above my head.

Then I tried doing it before going to hang out with friends. I was so deeply confused when I formed words clearly in my head, but then spoke slurred gibberish. I could fall hard on concrete and not feel a thing. I had all these thoughts that seemed profound about my life and purpose, but none ever made it to the next day. PCP is what actually convinced me that rehab and getting clean might be wise. Got through 2 months of rehab and another 2 of sobriety before I relapsed. That was 2 or 3 years ago.

After losing my last job, I discovered a few analogues of mitragynine had hit the market in easily accessible ways. Being in a pit of self pity and terror, I ordered a sizable amount of both. 60 pills of 7-ho, 30 of pseudoindoxyl. Over the past couple weeks, I used them. Somehow, two weeks was enough to get withdrawals. Last couple of days I could hardly stop crying long enough to distract myself. Once again, I'm confident these were very mild in the grand scheme of opiate withdrawals.

That leaves me at today, where the rebound anxiety's abated enough that I can function again. It feels like it's about time to try getting clean again, so I'm gonna try that. Wish me luck.
 
deficiT said:
Was there anything about 2cb specifically that you found particularly problematic?
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ive done the pink and purple stuff and the nexus.

to answer your question, yeah i used to like it but now i feel like it makes me to out of it. like im going in and out and cant focus etc just stopped enjoying it. I would do it if sitting around with friends etc but i wont be buying or seeking it out.
 
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