So I’ve been a daily user for about four months give or take, prior to that a weekend binge user twice to three times a month. My main ROA now is IV(daily) prior to which I was snorting for daily use and boofing when I would have a few off days in a row. My doses (before idk since I didn’t have a scale) on average now I use around .10-.15 twice a day with a .05 towards the end of my shift on work days. Days I’m off (usually two to three in a row) can be anywhere from .1 3x per day to 5x a day. I manage to keep up on self care and normal things but I see how heavy my use is just reflecting and if it’s not already too late, I want to taper off without my job, life and everything coming to a halt. I remember how I felt when I wake up and how exhausted I am when I start to come down, and I am worried that it’s not possible to do this myself. For the most part, I have kept up on eating enough to not be insanely paranoid or anything like that. My water intake has some what been fairly poor on off days since I use a lot more. On workdays I hydrate as I should, and eat more than enough since I work in food. Hygiene has been on the up and up even more so since I started using.
I guess the main thing I’m wanting to know is how can I taper and not feel absolutely awful and exhausted all the time and still be able to hold down my job and keep up on the rent. If I can receive assistance through methadone, would that be easier than tapering off with ice I just don’t know. Sorry that this is a whole novel but I just don’t know what to do at this point. For the most part I feel like my use has gone unnoticed and I want to keep it that way. Any and all help and advice is appreciated
I guess the main thing I’m wanting to know is how can I taper and not feel absolutely awful and exhausted all the time and still be able to hold down my job and keep up on the rent. If I can receive assistance through methadone, would that be easier than tapering off with ice I just don’t know. Sorry that this is a whole novel but I just don’t know what to do at this point. For the most part I feel like my use has gone unnoticed and I want to keep it that way. Any and all help and advice is appreciated