ok heres my opinion on it
methadone did all the positives for me no negatives BUT heres the catch... I caught it in time after just being on it for 5 months stabilized on a 110mg dose and thought about things one day on a lot of speed actually... and well I said after contemplating that I want to get off opiates and get clean after the taper and if possible ONLY IF POSSIBLE use any opiate on a rare basis in the future... my motivation on that IF IT HAPPENED I don't need to use ever and it would be just fuckin fine and dandy, main thing is getting off the methadone for me, but my main motivation is knowing how bad these drugs are with dependency and that whole bit. I want to not be a slave to them like that... ever ever ever again if I can hold myself to it, which I really know I will. I decided i wanted off, Its time, and financially I saw a hard few months coming... so enough playing the opiod/dope game because you never win I learned you always get sick sometime you have to.... its like facing the music so to speak, you gotta do it to some extent sometime..
now I planned on using methadone at the clinic for however long it took, working with a counselor, but remembering the main thing from intake "we keep you on till youre ready" well dammit I'm ready 5 months is time enough. My lifestyle had changed pretty much all the way, and I just want off its a hard battle inside myself that occurred when I had the moment of truth deep down and thought, fuck it its time. My original plan and outlook was 2 - 3 years, 5 according to the doctor...
I learned I am a $$$$ to them (dollar sign moron :D) and not much else... they want you to be there a long time and bring in money... hell they want to raise your dose for you so you have to pay more in some locations it seems... that is how life works. Just do what you think is right (if it really is) and not what they will force feed you... you do not need to do 10 years of methadone which is what my first doctor told me... making me leave and transfer was his attitude. They are just elaborate drug dealers, I go in get my dope, dose, get weekend doses and go home and the next day do it again.... its like your daily dope score but easy and legal... and the high is obviously not there because that is not how the clinic works its not to get high but thats not what i wanted from it anyways... it did get me high though as i titrated, regardless of tolerance and whatever else, I still got a mild buzz every week I went up until 2 weeks after stopping that then I was tired for a long time until I fully adapted I guess,
The constipation and other side effects like excessive sleeping (really just those two) were a big reason for wanting to taper... I'm at 65 (well tomorrow i will be going from 70 to 65) now and see that as damn near half way in my eyes... I started new years week and did 5mg every 5-7 days except the first drop was 10mg, and doing it at this rate I have not noticed any and I mean ANY wd symptoms yet... maybe mild aches if I missed a day (and it depended on other things, and other drug use of stimulants and shit so it was hard to tell what was what with feeling shitty... but there was no shitty to be honest. yet anyways).
I expect it to get hard or harder at least, soon. I think once I get to like 45 or 40 the 5mg drops will be more than 10 percent of the total dose and that will begin to me more noticeable to my body. No cravings really yet. I did use H one time on the done.... that was 6 weeks or so ago and was actually to see how well the methadone blocked heroin... sure it was to get high and was a treat to myself in a way i guess, though thats the wrong time to do it but I figured fuck it lets see how strong of a will I have if I start wanting it every day after then I will know, but I did not desire it or need it or anything just did the dope and moved on...
for you OP, Most people use it in a long long time period like 2-5 years on average I guess, but more and some less... When you're ready and you know it you just know it. If I was not ready then I don't think I would be able or even willing to just start tapering and find it not a problem (for the first ginormous chunk of the tapering time) at all. I feel the lower doses hold me damn near as well as the stabilized dose did... maybe not as much now by a hair, but it adapts after 3-4 days and its like im still on 110mg without being so fucking tired and I still have the shitting problems of course but theres less strain now... less blood lol. sorry.
you can always do the rapid taper with it... I wish I tried that out first. but really methadone is what you make and want out of treatment, and is entirely varying in how well it works for the patient depending on the patient and their mindset toward getting clean... if you mean what you said you will be ok on it... I think I really really do... but I may struggle next week at 60 or 55 or eventually at 30 may be finding it harder than imaginable but I expect it to happen at some point... maybe not as bad as that but it will get harder.... If I need I will try to swap to suboxone around 30mg if its too hard to go down... but I will go as far as I can and hopefully all the fucking way and then boom... I can't wait for the happiness of not being a slave to this shit. I was so scared before i started the taper.... so so fucking scared but I soon realized if you do it the right way its just as the places said, not too bad discomfortwise.
You can do it. It helped me because it A) killed all opiate cravings, desires, and most dreams (last couple weeks I have had more H dreams but nothing bad... I think I'll always dream of dope. All drugs even theyre my main activity in life as an addict so its like no shit you dream about them)
B) No WD symptoms with the stabilized amount of methadone
C) helped change my daily lifestyle on basically stopping talking to the wrong people and eliminating almost all but one (he also sells weed and other shit I may use besides dope) from my life. Even the dealers are supporting on me getting clean even though its fucking them over really. Any other addict friend I kept in my phone is supportive and said everything positive you could imagine... the others, well they did not make it and got deleted.
There is more... its cheap and just idk it does really help. the unique NMDA receptor shit makes it a good choice for Op replacement therapy too.
Look into it, and when you're ready do what you think is best. You have me saying yes and the guy above saying stay away from it... so its really up to you to make the best sense of what you want and how you want to get there. Methadone can get you there if you do it right and its what you want. If I walk away the rest of the way relatively unscathed from WD I will honestly be able to say this shit was a miraculous risk that turned out to be a lifesaver for me.
Seriously. look into every option possible and even every option possible about the methadone if you choose that route. You can do it long, short, medium, just how you need to do it. It can give you a life back. 5 months for you using is not too long man so I would try to get off and away without ORT techniques if all possible, but if you are constantly going back to the dope fucking up and breaking the law every day and shit related to a lot of addicts patterns of use and shit, then methadone will help you.... mainly it will get you stable and then do that for a while till you think you want to try to stop. its different for every patient and every H addict/opiate addict out there, everyone is different and their situation is unique. Thats what makes it even moreso something you must look into and not just jump into... I kinda did, but like I said I was taking a risk... which paid off luckilly. I prayed and do as often as I remember for strength and it just really started happening for me. I'm not religious but when you are at rock bottom praying does not sound like a bad idea. Did the prayers work? I don't know, but others saw this act of mine a great thing and me trying to get clean so that helped drive me to do it and do it right...
good luck.
get off the shit
at least habitually in any real extent.
You will be happier, I already am and I'm not there yet just knowing I'm closer makes me happier inside... knowing most people have a horrible time from the start of tapering (all from what I asked and saw) and for some reason I notice nothing bad at all... like its nothing seriously. but stay positive main thing.