Celery Stick
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Feb 17, 2016
- Messages
- 15
I've been 10 years on Ritaline and have always been uneasy, and kind of sedated by this medication. It hasn't helped me socially.
When I stopped using it and started my apprenticeship I gained a boost in confidence, and did so many things (fucked for the first time, accomplished my skydiving license, made new friends picked up a new sport and so on...)
But I started getting bad grades at school due to not being enough attentive, at work too, I would do stupid mistakes which started to build up a strong anxiety and stress.
Since I'm on my final year of my apprenticeship I'm putting all my chances on my side and so I started a new treatment: Elvanse, or rather Vyvanse for others.
Since I started this treatment my grades and my performance at work has sky rocketed.
But I'm now drained and sedated, and emotionnaly feel empty once again.
For example telling a joke and instead of laughing at how bad it was, I feel horribly uneasy and uncomfortable, I'm loosing and have lost lots of self confidence, and I'm not very social at the moment.
I fucking hate that feeling, but I know that continuing the treatment until the end of the year will make me pass.
But what can I do ???
I don't sleep very well either I'm spending too much time playing video games, but it doesn't make a difference because as soon as I take this pill, I'm isolated in my world of focus and concentration. I juste don't seem tonne appreciating life than before when I stopped medication.
Do you thing something could help me like, Xanax or whatever meds that relieves from anxiety ? And is it safe to mix with amphetamine meds ? (Precisely Loaded amphetamine)
I'm tired of this cage trapping my real personality.
Any advice is appreciated.
Thanks for reading.
When I stopped using it and started my apprenticeship I gained a boost in confidence, and did so many things (fucked for the first time, accomplished my skydiving license, made new friends picked up a new sport and so on...)
But I started getting bad grades at school due to not being enough attentive, at work too, I would do stupid mistakes which started to build up a strong anxiety and stress.
Since I'm on my final year of my apprenticeship I'm putting all my chances on my side and so I started a new treatment: Elvanse, or rather Vyvanse for others.
Since I started this treatment my grades and my performance at work has sky rocketed.
But I'm now drained and sedated, and emotionnaly feel empty once again.
For example telling a joke and instead of laughing at how bad it was, I feel horribly uneasy and uncomfortable, I'm loosing and have lost lots of self confidence, and I'm not very social at the moment.
I fucking hate that feeling, but I know that continuing the treatment until the end of the year will make me pass.
But what can I do ???
I don't sleep very well either I'm spending too much time playing video games, but it doesn't make a difference because as soon as I take this pill, I'm isolated in my world of focus and concentration. I juste don't seem tonne appreciating life than before when I stopped medication.
Do you thing something could help me like, Xanax or whatever meds that relieves from anxiety ? And is it safe to mix with amphetamine meds ? (Precisely Loaded amphetamine)
I'm tired of this cage trapping my real personality.
Any advice is appreciated.
Thanks for reading.