Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
good topic here; was brought up in another dope thread but made me think.
so, not sure if you are a user or ex-user, but how much of your weekly or bi-weekly check went to your drug of choice? how did you get by?
I've always made good money and have always worked in the corporate/sales world even tho I grew up in the "'streets" I got lucky enough to get a gig right out of jail w/ a corporate company selling and things took off from there. I've always made DECENT cash, anywhere form 60-100k (100k only happened twice in last 8 years). but either way, I made good money.
so, my checks always ranged based on commission days and non-commission days. usually my bank account was ALWAYS -600. I over drafted that thing ANYTIME I COULD; I'd keep some real money at home but ZERO in the bank. I am in the middle of a BANKRUPTCY claim and had to get paperwork done, it showed that I spent over $1500 last year in overdraft charges.. imagine? $1500 in overdrafts!? thats fucking insane.
anyway. the minute I got my check I'd grab 3G's. depending who I got from it would range from 2-300 bucks. on the other days I'd always grab a G at lunch and then another G or s once I got out of work. I usually NEVER ended the night w/ a shot but would just take more benzos then to help get more fucked up and sleep.
I just claimed bankruptcy after years and years of working and making good cash. I ran up over 50k in credit card debt and I would say 75% of that had to do w/ cash advances or just buying items for dealers at certain places. I remember i would tell my dealer to call me anytime he needed to pay for his cell phone bill, get gas, buy clothes, buy ANY ITEM WORTH BIG MONEY.. just so I could charge it and could get what I saw a "free" dope. isnt that fucking insane? or are all us ex-junkies/junkies doing it? I should have just gave the kid my credit card but didnt. most of the time he wanted REAL CASH and I dont blame him considering he did what he did but I wish I could have run 100k before claiming bankruptcy. this bankruptcy claim is costing me close to 2k but its well worth it. I can finally get out of debt and rebuild my life. same goes for laying off the drug. its just helping me save money, build my life and do me.
nowadays, I get paid monthly since I am working as a consultant for my company. if I was still using I dont know how/if I could even get by. but it's been easy the last few months w/o drug use; no money gets used.
I'll admit tho, I still do spend about 50/wk on drugs between weed/xanny (I am prescribed but sometimes randomly buy) and I do offer a dude money for adderall once in a while but he gives it to me for free since he is scripted and I am only getting 3 pills at most. BUT.. my 50/week habit is MUCH BETTER than 200+/day habit I once had. man, blows my mind how the fucked I survived. Ill always remember driving w/ gas light on to the "meeting spot" and praying to god I dont lose gas. it never happened, thankfully.. but it whacky to think about. and thats when I had a car. wasnt always like that for me. whats funny is once I scored the dope and ran into the nearest bathroom to shoot, I could care less if the car fucking blew up, never mind run of out gas! all I cared about was the dope.
it's crazy looking at my account now and seeing NO NUMBERS CHANGE FOR DAYS! and also crazy to see the money I now have in there. I just bring up my bank account every few hours just to have a look and smile at the thought. fucking whacky, right?
so, not sure if you are a user or ex-user, but how much of your weekly or bi-weekly check went to your drug of choice? how did you get by?
I've always made good money and have always worked in the corporate/sales world even tho I grew up in the "'streets" I got lucky enough to get a gig right out of jail w/ a corporate company selling and things took off from there. I've always made DECENT cash, anywhere form 60-100k (100k only happened twice in last 8 years). but either way, I made good money.
so, my checks always ranged based on commission days and non-commission days. usually my bank account was ALWAYS -600. I over drafted that thing ANYTIME I COULD; I'd keep some real money at home but ZERO in the bank. I am in the middle of a BANKRUPTCY claim and had to get paperwork done, it showed that I spent over $1500 last year in overdraft charges.. imagine? $1500 in overdrafts!? thats fucking insane.
anyway. the minute I got my check I'd grab 3G's. depending who I got from it would range from 2-300 bucks. on the other days I'd always grab a G at lunch and then another G or s once I got out of work. I usually NEVER ended the night w/ a shot but would just take more benzos then to help get more fucked up and sleep.
I just claimed bankruptcy after years and years of working and making good cash. I ran up over 50k in credit card debt and I would say 75% of that had to do w/ cash advances or just buying items for dealers at certain places. I remember i would tell my dealer to call me anytime he needed to pay for his cell phone bill, get gas, buy clothes, buy ANY ITEM WORTH BIG MONEY.. just so I could charge it and could get what I saw a "free" dope. isnt that fucking insane? or are all us ex-junkies/junkies doing it? I should have just gave the kid my credit card but didnt. most of the time he wanted REAL CASH and I dont blame him considering he did what he did but I wish I could have run 100k before claiming bankruptcy. this bankruptcy claim is costing me close to 2k but its well worth it. I can finally get out of debt and rebuild my life. same goes for laying off the drug. its just helping me save money, build my life and do me.
nowadays, I get paid monthly since I am working as a consultant for my company. if I was still using I dont know how/if I could even get by. but it's been easy the last few months w/o drug use; no money gets used.
I'll admit tho, I still do spend about 50/wk on drugs between weed/xanny (I am prescribed but sometimes randomly buy) and I do offer a dude money for adderall once in a while but he gives it to me for free since he is scripted and I am only getting 3 pills at most. BUT.. my 50/week habit is MUCH BETTER than 200+/day habit I once had. man, blows my mind how the fucked I survived. Ill always remember driving w/ gas light on to the "meeting spot" and praying to god I dont lose gas. it never happened, thankfully.. but it whacky to think about. and thats when I had a car. wasnt always like that for me. whats funny is once I scored the dope and ran into the nearest bathroom to shoot, I could care less if the car fucking blew up, never mind run of out gas! all I cared about was the dope.
it's crazy looking at my account now and seeing NO NUMBERS CHANGE FOR DAYS! and also crazy to see the money I now have in there. I just bring up my bank account every few hours just to have a look and smile at the thought. fucking whacky, right?
