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How Much of Your Life is Devoted to Drugs and Why?

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I'd say 25%.

I found erowid when i was 12 and spent my teenage years reading extensive trip reports in a vast range of plants and chemicals. began online ordering of DXM, HWBR seeds, then eventually 2ci, DMT, 4-AcO-DMT, 5-MeO-DiPT, tried 2cb, mdma, mda, 5-MeO-DMT, amphetamines, oxies, vicodin, NOS, lots of ketamine, cocaine sporadically, near daily consumption of marijuana, xanax recently. tried kratom, coca tea, ayauscha, syrian rue, and have a handful of stuff sitting in a box in my fridge waiting to be tried (cactus, 5-MeO-DPT). Not too menton piracetam, caffiene, nicotine, and all these other borderline psychoactives. And, of course, a dozen LSD trips and mushroom trips, respectively. (please don't PM for sources or w/e you do. it's not happening).

I don't hope to come across as commencing a pissing contest. I make this list as a reflection on the role drugs have played on my life.

It's not even like I can count on my all fingers and toes how many times ive tripped or dosed, it's like i can't even count on my fingers and toes how many different things ive tripped on.

And I'm considerably regretful about that. I'm graduating from an internationally respected university in a year. My mind can still function, unquestionably. But what has been compensated and for what end? Fleeting eternity? The sensation of my blood being made of pleasure and love?

How do you guys see this? Do you regret what you've given up for the high, whatever it may be? Perhaps a question that's even more essential: why is it one should even practice regret and rather be thankful for their realizations and learn from them?

Yet I have a rail of amphetamines next to me that I think I'm going to do....

Strange I have such self control with every other aspect of my life yet drugs and women. Perhaps I need to learn to take no for an answer.

Hm, so this is like more of a journal entry then a post of any kind. Just respond I guess, say what you want about these things I've posted.
 
Actually I think this is a really great post. I would say a large part of my life is devoted to drugs, probably the majority of it, but not just using. The greater part of that is the politics that surrounds them, harm reduction, education, etc.

Sometimes I feel regrets or guilty about it because society pressures me to feel this way, but deep down I know there is nothing wrong with it. When Michael Phelps devotes himself to swimming we praise him so what is wrong with us devoting ourselves to drugs? After all we both do it for the love of the experience and not all drug users are self destructive, on the contrary the drugs we research daily enrich lives and cure illnesses.

Often it is hard to live a normal life because of drugs and finding social acceptance is nearly impossible but fuck it, I would never want to be normal anyway. A couple of hopeless nodding junkies are way more real than a clique of abbercrombie wearing douche bags who think they have the life equation figured out.

Drugs have enriched my personal experience. Those who do not take changes, use drugs, enjoy high risk activities, think outside the box, or step outside their role are wasting the gift. That is a far greater crime than a little abuse to your physical body.
 
Yep, im going to say about 20. I actually don't do drugs very often. I smoke weed once a week or once every two weeks, and I roll once a month. Any other drug is done only on special occasions. I don't even drink.

However, I love researching drugs, so they come up often in conversation. I am often seen reading drug books. I discuss drug deals with my friends. I find them fascinating, so they take up more of my life. I am a strong advocator of safe, recreational use, and try to push others in that direction.

Honestly, if I were to go edge, things wouldn't change much. The research and discussion would still continue.
 
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Actually I think this is a really great post. I would say a large part of my life is devoted to drugs, probably the majority of it, but not just using. The greater part of that is the politics that surrounds them, harm reduction, education, etc.
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Same here. I have spent the past 5 years, not just taking drugs, but learning about, discussing, studying about them(now doing BSc in pharmaceutical chemistry).

Pretty much all my life revolves around drugs. I am considered the fountain of knowledge by anyone who knows me in regards to drugs. My weekends are usually totally drug related. My every day going to sleep involves drugs 99% of the time. I have smoked weed nearly nightly for the past 4 years. If I can, benzos or sleeping tablets. If I don't have anything, I am usually fine, but if I have something around, I cannot say no. Ever.

Pharmaceuticals are my current favorite thing to study. Its become a bit of a problem, since knowledge comes from experience.



It all started about six years ago when my ex was talking about Ecstasy. We broke up before we tried it, but it got me interested, and I had it for the first time in July 03. Absolutely loved it, but I fucked up and because of the stimulant effects, decided to eat a bottle of dexamphetamine over the evening. This turned me off it for a bit, but I tried it again in October and was fine.

After that, over the course of about a year, I tried MDMA, weed, Ketamine (massive love affair with K), acid, mushrooms, 2-cb, DXM, coke, Xanax, Valium, Oxazapam etc etc.

This progressed to, in the past two or so years into Oxycontin (whenever I can :\), 1,4-b (too much of the shit. Not to mention stupid behavior, such as drinking alcohol within minutes of having G. I've also started having benzodiazapine related blackouts on weekends. Three times in the past 2 months, I have been told about shit I did on the weekend, and have no idea. My weekends have consisted of complete drug fuckedness with intermittent blackouts.

I don't regret anything really. Even getting sick for a fortnight after eating 16 dexamphetamines tablets on my first time, just made me more intent on studying shit before I touch it. Also, leaving uni til so late (I'm 25 this year, and only started last year). After school, I worked for a solid 12 months, then found drugs and partied my arse off until about March last year. Now I party, but I don't go from Sunday til Saturday. I know I will probably get hopelessly addicted to drugs in the future, but I will cross that bridge when I get to it... 8)





When Michael Phelps devotes himself to swimming we praise him so what is wrong with us devoting ourselves to drugs?
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Agreed. And once in a million years, we will see him with a bong. And once in a million years, I will swim.
 
good thread.

doing drugs? like hmmm maybe 20%

drugs in general? 98%

haha like everyone else, it is just a part of me.

i do regret it at times but i am very happy they came into my life :)
i love the pleasure i get from them
 
Id say about 2 minutes a day to take my pills. And about 45 minutes a month to the dr visit. Kinda glad i dont do illicit drugs anymore cause id say about 90% of my life revolved around scoring and using.
 
All in all, I would say that I'm at about a 50% percent.

My use started out with marijuana and peaked at probably around 65% around then because I loved weed. I burnt out on the buds a bit, and lowered down to probably around 25%.

When I discovered poppy tea, it hopped up to around 75% of the time because I loved the effects. I quickly discoverd the negative consequences of chronic opiate dosing, and sort of leveled out now around 50%. Seems like when I discover something I really like I'll abuse it until I can't get nothing out of it anymore, then reduce significantly to mantain the effects I like.

I've only done this with cannabis and opiates though, psychedelics were self limiting in that i couldn't ever find them and when I did I still didn't want to trip all the time or nothing. Like the OP I spent a lot of time researching drugs on Erowid when I first started becoming curious.
 
like at least 75 percent. i started pretty yung before i had developed real hobbies. so drugs became my hobby. using them, and learning about them. the issue was when you had acsess to a large variety of potent psychoacives during the early teens there wasnt much else that would entertain me. so instead of developing hobbies that were soically acceptable i jsut plunged further into the drug world. now that i kno i need to change its so hard because ive pretty much had my brain develop with daily psycoactive use and i still cant find stuff as enteraitnign as drugs. i definalty regret the role they play in my life.
 
well using drugs used to take up a very large portion of my daily life. nowadays though, i would say drug use is like 5% and drug research/bluelight stuff is 35-40%. even though i do not use drugs too much anymore, i am fascinated with them and love learning new things about them and help people out with questions they ask and get on BL fairly often.
 
Shit....I don't know how much my life consists of drugs....I would say though I use them a lot if I have freedom or free time....aka, summer time! haha
 
Well, most of the time I'm trying find people with opiates, but they never really come around here. I still haven't found a good dealer. If I did though, I'd probably say I'd spend about 15%-20% of my time scoring and using.

For time that I'm talking about them or thinking about them, that's about 85%.
 
buying, using and being high consumes about 25% of my time (just pot these days). i still spend a lot of time reading/talking about drugs (particularly on bluelight), although it's not nearly the obsession it was when i first discovered psychedelics and erowid. there was definitely a point in my life where drugs were the #1 priority for me, and consumed probably 97% of my thoughts/efforts/money/waking hours.

of course, on the other hand, i'm still almost constantly under the influence of some psychoactive or another. my day doesn't start without coffee, i don't stop drinking coffee until my first smoke of the day, and there are always a few beers at some point in the evening as well. it's not something i think about as much anymore, but only because i've gotten so used to the idea of using substances to alter my consciousness that it's just become a part of my reality.
 
I go through periods of thinking about them / using / researching about 80-90% of the my spare time, to not really giving any thought to scoring them but anything to do with them will immediately get my attention for a few moments, nothing significant - sometimes I'll go read some Erowid stories and think of all the stuff that's available and the shit we have here but that's about it. Even pharmaceuticals that don't have recreational potential will draw my attention - I'm interested in more than psycho-actives but like to know more about drugs and how the body works.

I follow random high to low to moderate to low to high usage patterns depending on circumstances. Right now it's moderate-high but I just got my independence back and it was actually worse when I was stuck at home - especially with a nice stock of painkillers that I didn't need any more. But I've been off everything except 3x50mg Tramadol / day and 3x75mg Lyrica. I want off of the Lyrica soon, it interferes with cognitive abilities which compounds the problem. Halving the dose doubled my IQ! OK... Not really, but it felt like that. There's a 25mg cap apparently. I'll end up using that once / day for a long time according to the doctor.

I'm focussing on intelligence enhancing drugs at the moment that can boost memory and energy. I need to exercise my brain and get some new pathways forming - my memory is terrible! I can barely remember what I'm doing the next day if I haven't been reminded. I'm still good under pressure but normally unusually fatigued and have been for a very long time. I know the cause, have all the symptoms to a T. But I need a doctor that knows what's up and has studied or knows about the condition to confirm what I already know. He can do MRI or whatever, hopefully there's a way to prove it. If I don't get help, I'm going to have to keep looking. Until recently it wasn't really taken seriously by all doctors, and knowing doctors here it will take time to gain acceptance.

It will stop me from taking other things which I'll keep to special occasions.
 
"Often it is hard to live a normal life because of drugs and finding social acceptance is nearly impossible but fuck it, I would never want to be normal anyway. A couple of hopeless nodding junkies are way more real than a clique of abbercrombie wearing douche bags who think they have the life equation figured out. "

Hell yes JunkieLife ftw..

I spend like 90% of my time thinking about or doing smack.. other 10% thinking about this one female..
 
I would have to say that drug use/abuse/research would consist of about 85% of my life. I have done basically every major drug in the world and have loved every minute of it! I will be taking opiates until the day i die.
 
A few years ago I used to use drugs about 10% of the time (like once a week or every two weeks), and spend about 30% of my time researching them, but then I got into diesel and now I'd say I spend 75% of my time scoring and using. and the other 25% im usually thinking about it or trying to scheme a way to get more...
 
A lot of time... a good 25%.

A good portion of my day is centered around not only the getting high but the preparation for it; finding a good spot if I'm at work or school, finding a good time to do it that isn't super suspcious, then getting the gear ready, actually doing the drugs, cleaning everything up...

Then of course the ridiculous amounts of time I spend talking to dealers on the phone, texting dealers, WAITING for dealers, driving out there and back, etc.

And the massive amounts of time I spend thinking about drugs, making sure I'm not gonna run out, etc.

Yes being a meth addict is a part time job...
 
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